say that in a sentence.
I feel chillin.
it doesnt make sense.
but I feel chill.
not calm, or content.
just .. chill.
I had inschool suspension today.
O_O
it's a pointless punishment.
it's a zoo in there.
and they wonder why kids keep returning there.
the same ones too.
I think I got written up again, because I got sassy with the teacher.
I dont like her, so she deserved it.
good theory.
I think i'm hanging out with Nick on friday.
and Andy, Nemer, Krissy & Kaycee.
I dont know what's going to happen, actually .. yes I do.
it's more I want it too happen, but I dont want it too happen.
i'm playing tug of war with good girl, bad girl.
and i'm losing on both ends.
i'm going to be drinking.
I cant use that as an excuse for what I do.
but it's going to have to be good enough until I can think of a better, half way decent one.
..
tonights your last chance to,
do exactly what you want too.
and this could be my night.
this is what makes me feel alive.
in this moment,
where we both ignore the truth
it's all over.
feel your heart against mine
take a breath and close your eyes.
...