Hide My Pain In your arms I lie at night, As the time counts down before It is time for you to leave me. I have known for months that That day would come and inside My mind I prepared myself, but My heart kept pushing it away... Avoiding the inevitable... So with almost no time left, The pain wells up inside of Me so bad that it goes beyond Mere heartbreak... Holding back the tears, as I lie in Your arms at night, turning away, Hoping you wont catch me crying... You can never know what it is I feel- It would do no good to tell you because It would not change how things are or How things will be... And yet it is I find myself saying "I love you" under my breath, Almost constantly... And to slip and allow these tears To be freed would only deny me the Remaining time I have left, as you Would feel uneasy, and slip away Before it is time... It will get worse before it will get Better, but with what I know and what I have known, I cannot see beyond the Pain that lingers in my heart, and I am left wondering, will I ever know Any other feeling... Love without pain, love without loss, I cannot fathom such a feeling yet I long for it with you... And that longing is like a thousand deaths. And as I long to be released from that pain, I know it will never happen because to be Released from that pain would mean being released From you, and the pain of that is death in itself... So for the time I have left I will lie in Your arms, hiding the pain that wells up Inside and the pain that accompanies holding Back the tears, and hope and pray you don't Wake up, and catch me with those tears in my eyes... The tears in my eyes that come from loving you. I h.e.a.r.t you