it seems like a million years
since i updated this.
Lets back track meaninglessly to March 28th
if I can remember that far
April 3rd
a good place to start eh?
its been exactly 1 year for me liking Jon*
pathetic eh? seeing as how by now --
he just doesnt care
monday morning ( next day ) i cryed.
it was because .. i miss him
i cant be without him [ x3 ] he means so much to me
WhAtS sPoNgEbOb WiThOuT pAtRiCk?
WhAtS pigLeT wiThOuT poOh?
WhAtS tOMmY wiThOuT cHuCkiE?
*WhAtS mEe WiThOUt YoO?*
it just doesnt make sense too me.
i wish i could put my feelings on here.
but my -- so called life is at stake.
April 6th
Chris came back to school.
la-dee-fucking-dah.
everyone expects me to be overjoyed.
when i just really dont care too much
no one wants to let me forget how much I liked him
-- liked is the keyword there.
i mean even he remembers
all the girls think he`s gorgues
i think im in-love with his librette piercing.
im jealous :x
Ben --
i should call him. thats all i have to say
:( actually i could say more.
i just choose not too.
Off of dates -- School
grades close tomorrow.
and wouldnt you know im failing :)
oh joy.
i think i`ll leave you all alone now :)
laterr dayss* --
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turned my back on loving you
How could this love be a good thing?
Not knowing what im going through
♥♥
[ yea i talked a lil too much here]
♥ love ya girlll
o_O; haha.
love --me ♥
aww well from the looks of it, it seems like ur doin great and im soo soo happy about that. me im like in the middle :-/ school is breakin me down. so many ppl are makin me make promises to acually go to school, and ima afraid ima let them all down :( its totally stressin me oUT!
xo*
Justine
You got a cute diary:)
i mean if you dont want to i completley understand.. i want it kind of like yours .. just the back ground tho ... thank you so much. if you can..
Sami
mine pisses me off.
I got bert too..
but like no used lyrics. meh. dc.
:)
WHoa village was interesting today.
yea im really scared to die too its kinda holdin me back--
& plus ppl these days are just soo MEAN! i dunno how it got like this. . .
yea i can understand that. it does make alotta sense acually. maybe thas y i felt so uncomfortable readin my journal 2 some1--
w0w i kno wat u mean. im an open book to when it comes to me sometimes & it kills me sometimes cuz i would tell some1 somethin bout me & i would regret it soo badd like y did i tell them that, they dont need to kno what about me oh mann
i dont really like talkin to ppl that mcuh when it--
yea thas kinda funny that we dont kno eachother & here we are goin on&on bout our lives but im lovin it lol but yea it makes me feel so much better knowin some1 acually does care about me, like i really needed it at this-
[wow, sorry bout that--just hada get it out]
yea i dunno alot of times when i get compliments im happy bout it 4 a minute but then i start thinkin that the person is like lyin to me
wtfff ppl make fun of u for that. omG i hate ppl g0sh watthehell like they act like ppl choose the way they look ufff my friends do taht all the time they make fun of ppl that they think "look funny" it pisses me off so much & then they freakin ask "oh y r u sOo mad today"
w0w this is so wierd lol that happens to me too i like lose my apetite aLOt and every1 like just assumes im like annorexic just cuz im not eating but really like im not hungry or not in the mood to eat--
like my friends & cuzins would totally like dRive me crazyy with it like he would walk by and they would be like "wOoOoo, justine look who just walked past u, y dont u go after ur mann" and its like wat the hell cuz they say it loud enough 4 him 2 hear! its so embarrassing & to make things worse most the time the guy doesnt even like me back so when he hears them he just gets disgusted ugh its just awfull--
like lately im afraid if i do one thing it will get me hurt, or goin here or there doin this or that could kill me i dunno im cRazy & paranoid lately i dunno y :[
yea i agree it is really good that we are like so alike with our problems it makes it so much easier. & i totally understand how it goes with the whole likin some1 & bein able to tell everyone BUT him that u like them & then when they finally do find--