I feel different callings from God right now and at the same time, I'm trying to deal with stuff by praying to Him and reading His word. All the while, I'm feeling like my relationship with Grant is wharping parts of my life and making me think too far in advance in a lot of ways. I think God wants me to slow down and just talk to Him. It's so hard though at times, because I feel unworthy and but dust, but I know in my heart that He is there and is ready and willing to listen to me. We watched Casablanca yesterday at Lou's house. What a great movie. Great love story indeed. Despite the fact that the characters were lost. I saw a lot of wrong that took place in the different actions of the characters, but I think you have to realize that it is just a movie and that you should be thankful that you know what is right. My favorite quote of the movie has to be, "Here's looking at you, kid." I read a little book that Erin leant me about modesty. I can honestly say that I once dressed very immodest and that probably didn't help me in the one bit. But thanks be to God that I have been getting a lot better at dressing more modestly. The book also mentioned that you need to have an inner modesty too. This comes from a love for the Lord. I need to recognized that my body is a temple of God and that it is beautifully and wonderfully made and that it is meant for one man. I hope and pray that God reveals more to me His ways. Ways that are holy, righteous and true. I miss Florida. My mom and I were talking today, and she told me about one of her co-workers that was talking about the hotel I worked at. Sometimes I forget all of the fun that I experienced down there. But then I stop to remember that I'm here in Nebraska now, and by the grace of God I will understand that...Nothing compares to the promise that I have in Jesus. I just miss the weather and some of my friends that I made down there. Not so much all the craziness of my job. Speaking of job. Dad wants me to get a job for this coming semester. Take that back, mom does too. I want to work somewhere flexible and fun. I don't care so much about how much I'll be making. Something Lou said stuck with me and made me think..haha, well he says alot of stuff like that, but he said that our money is not our own and that God requires us to use our resources wisely. I feel bad when I don't tithe enough..it's hard when you don't have a job. I'm living off of savings. I do need a job. I need to go get ready. I have to take my bro to guitar lessons and then I'm gonna swing by the library for a bit while he's strummin' away. I think Grant might swing by too. Then Kyle and I are going to go meet up with grandma to watch LOTR 3. Hopefully my bottom won't hurt too bad when the movie is over with. Then tonight it's back to good ol' Pastor Lou and Mel's house to watch the HUSKERS woop up on the Spartains from Mich. St. GO BIG RED!