okay, the key point of that entry was that I WASN'T going to do anything. do you not think I'm a good person or something? I don't want to get back into that crapp, that's why I wasn't sure I was going to go. and guess what? I'm NOT going. so don't get your panties in a twist hun, I'm not stupid. I am not mad at you for saying that though, it shows me that you truly care, and that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. lol. but, I am bored. so, here I am at the library, bored out of my tree. this morning was hilarious, my mum was going through this box of halloween masks, and I put one on and went right up to my niece's face and yelled 'BOO!' she screamed, it was funny. well then, I don't like Troy, I don't think I could ever date him, so what do I say to him now? I'm so confuddled. I have a headache. Laura! what are you doing? call me or something you giant crapple. I'm bored! save me from the boredom! I had the weirdest dream. okay, I was coming home from college or something, but we were living in my old house, and there was this guy I was dating that was like a combination of two of my past boyfriends, and then we got it on right on top of the kitchen table, and then I started freaking out because we didn't use protection, and so I asked him for his car keys so I could go down 'the dirt road', even though the road is actually paved, and go to the store to buy a pregnancy test. like it would show up within two hours anyways, but that's not the point. so then he handed me his keys, even though I only have my beginners, and then I asked him which car was his, and he said 'the dark red one' and then I woke up. what the heck? I don't know, maybe I'm crazy. but it was so weird, because the house was like a mixture of this house I lived in on Hart Ave, and then the one I lived in on Munroe Ave. And there were all these people passed out on the couches and the floor in the living room. It really freaked me out, and I was like 'huh, that was weird' when I woke up. but besides that, nothing has happened since the other day, other than the fact that Laura told Taylor that I didn't like him anymore (which isn't true really) and he was acting all mopey or whatever. then she told him in band yesterday that I actually do like him. I have no clue what to think about any of this, and I'm not trying to get my hopes up or anything, seeing as the last time I actually hung out with him was in February. but whatever, if he likes me, good, if not, who cares? plenty of other tadpoles in the bucket. but now, I'm sitting here in the library, bored, tired, and hungry. maybe I should have eaten something before I left. oh, this darn site wasn't working at school, something like 'in transfer' or whatever, meanwhile it was working at the public library not even a half hour later, and not at school for the entire day. now that is quite strange. I was in such a bad mood yesterday during English (last class) because Taylor said to me and Laura to 'go away' and he was really upset or something. I hate seeing people upset, so it put me in a bad mood. and I was thinking about stuff a lot, and I was just sitting there writing in my notebook about how confused and upset I was. but I guess I'm okay now, which is good. and now I have nothing left to write, so bye ya'll. the one, the only, laura michelle*