Why can't people keep their mouths shut? K... Today.. In math.. I just started bustin out crying.. and then i went to the bathroom.. and I was outta class for like 15 min.. and then i went back to class... and my teacher was like u ok? and im like yea.. and then. god.. I was soo embarrased.. but then what makes it soo much better... is that everybody in my math class.. went and told everybody else.. and this one kid went and told my friend Jessica.. then she was all " OMG!! nicole whats wrong? are you ok!?" and zac was there.. and he wanted to know.. and I didnt wanna tell him cuz i'd be embarrased.. and so he was like.. w/e I dont wanna know.. as soon as i was about to tell him.. and then... yea.. then.. the rest of my day was horrible.. after guard practice.. it end at 4:30.. I call my mom.. and she was still at the house.. cuz she thought it ended at 5.. and so.. she said she was leaving the house.. and then.. I was all ok. and then I walked to wedys cuz i hadnt eatin all day and flet like i was going to die.. heh.. and got food.. sat there for ten minutes... then she showed up.. and went home... called zac.. but he was kinda mad at me.. then said hed call me back.. I went online.. 20 min. later.. then 5 min later.. he came on.. and we talked... not so good.. he was kinda actin like a dick.. but i dont blame him.. he was mad at me.. but once i told him what had happened... he was all omg.. so much frikin drama.. and so.. I don't think he really cared. :(.. I wish I could talk to him more.. but it just seems like everytime I try... he just doesnt wanna listen.. or.. hes too mad at me to listen. or something... I just wish I had somebody to talk to... someone there for me all the time.. sure.. people say.. I'm there for you.. but it seems no one ever really is.. I just want jenn or britt or someone.. cuz they were always there.. no matter what.. and i miss that i guess.. you never really realize how good of a friend someone is.. until you lose them.. I hate that. but w.e... oh.. on the plus side.. Me and Zac are going back out.. but.. I'm thinkin now hes thinkin it was a mistake.. :(.. dunno why.. he never said that.. but.. yea.. omg.. Rumors piss me off.. and if no body hears from the source.. then dont fucking say anything in the first place.. Im out. Nicole.