category 5 headed this wayyyyy!!!! ahhhhhhhhhh :(

so im going out with this kid Derek, he's cool. . . Rookie camp is tomorrow! then next week is band camp! yayy! I'm soo excited. we already learned guard work and everything! yayy, our show this year is....... you'll find out later! Mwhahahahah~! It's soo exciting! :-D <3 nicole@

has it been long since i've updated or whaT?! So, I'm working at the bowling alley now. I get my license in 3 days!! :-D annnnddddd.. I had a date tonight! Hopefully I will continue on liking this fellow friend, for I can't seem to find any one lately. Hopefully it can work out. hmm.. 10 days until I get my scuba diving license!! yayy. hehe. Im so excited! :-D <3<3<3<3<3

So, it feels like i've lost my friends. some are mad at me. some I haven't even talked to since school got out. its only been like less than a week. but still. It seems longer. So, i hung out with Chris, Mike, Phelim, and Nick tonight after I got off work. We went to the beach again, it was fun. I was scared the sharks would eat me. Tried to throw in Mike, but it never happened. Then went to Annies for some ices and ice scream. . then to drop nick off. then to publix so chris could get his schedule. . then HOME! yippeee. . . I worked today from 12-8. It was better than I expected. . but I didn't do as good as I expected when I first got there. It was a lot harder than I thought it would have been. I worked the cashier! yayy! and then Chris, Nick, Phelim, Matt, Megan, and ect. . came and visited me. it was fun. so, yea. . . . definately feel out of the loop. . but I guess thats no different than how over all i've ever felt down here. w/e. too much thinkin! <3 <3 Nicole <3

Okay!, sooo, Went Bowling Alley this morning, looks like I'm going to be Cashier at the food court! So you better come visit me! then went to Tj Max and Ross got some cute shrits. and pants. Then, Went to Beach with Chris and Nick. had a blast, them scaring me in the deep dark scary ocean. chris telling us how theres no sand dollars at this beach and that they are everywhere on the west coast of fl. 20 min later, we are just floatin/sittin in the water talking, me pull up a round shape, oh look! a sand dollar! ITS FULL! them -'HOLY SHIT!!! HOLY SHIT!!! HOLY SHIT!! HOLY SHIT!!' haha. Then Kelly comes and joins us finally! we build these human totem poles, and chris was so kind to take the picture (in all actually just too much of a weakling!!) hahaha jk. and WALA!! the HUMAN TOTEM POLE!!! OH CRAP!!! WHERE'D KELLY GOO!>?!?!?!?! and chriss, snapping a shot of himself! (prolly wondering where kelly went) so then Nick goes up to a bunch a middle schoolers and asks if they want to play marco pollo. . .and they reply in disgust NO! like they couldnt talk to us cuz we strangers! hahaha, and Me and nick keep making fun of chris, with the whole mexican thing. . haha. . had to be there. it was funn. so then we get out, and I go to rinse off with Kelly, and then we come back, and Nick is wearing kelly's shirt, and chris is wearing mine! and I guess Nick tried to put my jeans on, but they were too small and he got them all wet! and then chris got stuck in my shirt! haha. and he . . . BROKE IT! but its all good, I can just sew it! no biggy! hmm, then it was their turn to go rinse off, then we put on their clothes and shoes/socks and kelly got the sunglasses, and I got the keys! yess! anywayz. . then we left, and dropped off kelly. then dropped off nick so he could go get ready, then I went to chris's house. (his doggy dont like me, but hes soo cute! (the dog that is! lol)) and I put on his clothes, and I was officially a guy at abacoa. It was now Me, Chris, Nick, Mike, and Matt. We went and saw the longest yard. it was funn. we had this yumcious tasteing coke. ;-). then after wards, we went into the parking garage, where we raced up the ramps to the top level. and saw someone's window broken in, I guess someone was stealin stuff. then we all went back to the beach! It was now like 10 pm. we got there, and Mike and maybe Nick went in the water. They wasted the rest of the time. . TRYING. . to get me into the water. but I ran to a palm tree and became a tree hugger. . hehe. so then we found the big dipper, but no little dipper. then I layed in the middle of the beach road, and then got picked up by chris and nick and moved me to the side so I wouldn't get hit. . then my dad came. . and I left. but then my car and Matts car got stuck at the light cuz of the train. and we were talkin from window to window. . me, matt, and nick, that is. so then here I am. . updating this thing. I had soo much fun! Thx guys! we hafta do it again! ohh. . and btw. . I'll eat them all out!!!! don't worry! ;-) lol!!! hahahhaha! <3 <3

So, Shes out of the hospital now, I'm still worried about her. I'm trying to make her come down here for the summer. I hope it works. ♥ ♥

He calls me babe, :), I think its cute. ♥ ♥

Shes in the hospital again, She tried to kill herself. Man, I wish I was up there soo badly! I feel so useless down here! I hafta do something! Why do bad things ALWAYS happen to the best of people? This is the question I'm repeatedly asking myself over and over, and I still can't come up with an answer.

ahhh!! This party was soo freakin awesome!!! okay, so it starts : I show up being one of the first people there. . I brought her a cake. . and went to go give it to her and wish her a happy birthday. . . she reaches for it. . . and BAM!!!!!!!!!!! Right in her face!!! hahahahahha. That was greaatt.. Then everyone starts showing up. . we have some water balloons, and BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM! they are FLYING EVERYWHERE!!!! AHHHHhhhh!!! then. . WATERGUNS!!! AND FLYING BUCKETS OF WATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhh! and just when you think its all over. . . SPLASH SPLASH SPLASH!!!! Right into the POOL!!!! (it took forever to throw me in ;-) cuz Im soooo StRoNg!) haha. hmm. . . then we went back to rhe's house. . and. . . opened some presents! haha. some. . condom balloons and all that jazz. you know, the usual. . Then, TIME FOR MOVIES! The Grudge, Cabin Fever, Taxi, Chainsaw massacre, meet the fockers. haha. Kristin got soo scared! it was funny! hmmm,, I slept with a guy tonight! o_0 haha. not like that you perverts! lol. that was funn. so I helped rheanna out with shoving a cupcake into veronicas sleeping face. hehe. that was sooooo funny. and I drew on eddie's nose, and gave Jessica war marks on her cheeks. and tried to write on kyles leg, but he jumped up before I got a chance to do anything, and scared the freakin life outta me, cuz I thought he was sleeping, and ahhh. so scary!!! i almost had a freakin heart attack!!!!!!!!!!!! then rheanna doesnt listen very well, she wouldnt stop squirting me with a water gunn, so I used a blnket as my sheild. . . well, imm really tired, so I will finish updating later. . bye! Ty guys for a lovely time at rheanna's party! hahahahhahahaahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

So I normally hear that sweet 16s are the greatest. I dont feel any different. If anything, I feel depressed. I've done nothing today except sleep, Watch movies with parents. . . and ate cereal. . . Thats it. Gilespie stopped by for like 3 min. ^ My highlight of the day. Well, I suppose Im going to go to sleep now, even though its only like 8:45. So goodnight everyone, and have a good weekend. ♥ Hearts;

So, yea, today we found out who the guard captains were, and I wasn't happy, and I talked some shit of doubting one of them. and Instead of ignoring what I said, I went up to her 6th hr, and told her. And apoligized. well, I thought I was doing a good thing you know, try and put an end to the drama I had started, but nope. come home, and read some lj, and it turns out, I get it held against me, and I get made like the bad guy, I mean, I am in a sense, but like EVERYBODY was talking crap, and one person keeps denying it, and im the only person who went up to her! told her! and apoligized, and I'm the one getting penalized for it. . . Should I have just left it, and ignored I said anything, and if someone accused me, just pretend like I didn't say anything?! cuz, thats definately what some other person is doing. I mean, Step up to what you said, and dont pretend your an angel. ugh, that pisses me off soooooo BADLY! w/e. I'm venting. UGHH!

Today was fun, it went by so fast. I can't wait till Traditional Schedule. Thats how it was in New Jersey, and mann, the day went by so much faster, cuz You aren't in the class rooms for as long, and then time changing classes adds up to being 6 times, so that takes away like 10 minutes, give or take another 5. :-D I'm excited for next year kind of. I'm sad the Seniors are leaving though. :(. They MUST come back and visit! and any senior reading this. . . YOU MUST, i repeat, MUST come back and visit us! well, guess thats all for today. hmmmmmm, okay, bye! <3 <3 <3

sO, Im in a pretty good mood right now, me and Gillespie have been writing notes in a different language! Its funn!!! :-D lol. No one can read them! people try to read them in class, and they squint and go ' what the hell? ' heheheh. I am water coloring my romeo and juliet picture for english. Its due tomorrow. I don't like it. it looks soo bad! :-. So, Jay Jay, (my bird) we found out its a girl! so now we named her Gigi! hehe. lol. She doesn't have clamidia, she has a kidney disease, and most birds when they get it, only live to be like 2 months old, but she has lived like 5-6. and they don't know why. My mom said prolly cuz of the love she has. but she could die tomorrow, or in a year. no one knows. but when she dies, it will be fast. and shes not in any pain right now, so thats good. My aunt and her husband who gave us the bird has spent about $1,200 on her for going to the vet and stuff, THATS CRAZY! I feel like drawing, I've been feeling very artistic lately. But I haven't drawn that much. I want to go up to New Jersey this summer, I can't wait till I do. Omgsh I havent seen any one in 10 months!!!!!! Thats crazy! I am going up there christmas vacation and going snowboarding! OMGSH!!!! IM SOO EXCITED! I HAVENT GONE SNOWBOARDING IN 2 YEARS!!!!!!! I havent even seen snow in 2 years! :(. Its sad. I miss the snow soooo much. I feel as if that were all a dream, and I am forgetting what it feels like and smells like. Its sad. I used to love it so much. Now I am forgetting it. :(. So I hope my sister moves out here next year. That would be awesome. Since, I feel as if I have no brother or sister, and when they do come out here, I don't feel close to them like I used to. We barely ever talk, and sometimes its as if it were all a dream having siblings.. . I love box car racer. Thx Jenn. (from like 3 years ago! hahahah) hehe. I'm going out with this kid Zach. :).

--> Write down 10 different lines that are intended for certain people. Dont tell anyone who theyre for! >1> I miss you so much! >2> Why can't you just grow up, and talk things out? >3> Ugh! You annoy the hell outta me! >4> I wish we were closer. >5> Do you hate me? Cuz it sure seems like it. >6> Water fight in my kitchen. CJ - "Whats going on here?" Me - "haha, She just spilt a little water, Thats all." lol! :-D >7> VICIOUS KIDS ON BIKES ATTACKING THE WORLD!!! >8> Will you ask me already!? Or do I hafta?!?!?!?! :- >9> Come over! :). >10> I hope I'm not just a hookup buddy. . .

Hehe, so, I think I really like him. But I don't think we are even going out yet. I kind of want to go out with him. lol. hmm, But oh well, I don't know if I should say anything to him. Any ideas? If so, I'd really appreciate it. Thanks. Today, he came over, we made out. and wrestled. lol. I WON! :-. . . Atleast I pretend I do. hehe. Well, that was all for today. :).

So, I haven't updated in a while. Its spring break right now, Its been fun. Tomorrow I have Championships for guard. There will be a total of 54 groups from Guard to Percussion. Thats a lot! It should be fun. I have major sunburn, sO I will be in pain for it. :(. But oh well, It's worth it. Some drama between me and Zac, hopefully it will pass soon. I keep thinking of Andrew, he hasn't called me, or answered my calls, I've only called him like once or twice, and text him once, and he's been gone since Sunday. He's not getting back till Sunday. :-. I want to hear from him. He called me on Sunday, and told me to call him Monday, but I forgot, and called him Tuesday, but I havent heard from him. lol. :(. Hmm, Theres really not that much to tell, other than I am TIRED! :'( so Im going to go the sleep! GNIGHT! ♥ Nicole

Omg, So, me and Jane went to a bonfire out in Caloosa.It was cool at first, they had a fire, it sucked it was small. Then, this kid put on a fuckin KKK mask and another one brought out this huge cross, and stuck the cross in the middle of the fire and went to take a picture with the KKK guy, and threw gasoline all over so the fire was huge. It was soo fucking MESSED UP! Me and Jane were like WTF? take out the cross now! thats fucking disrespectful! and ugh, it was soo wrong, me and Jane left after that because we weren't comfortable. Ugh, Jane was like the KKK mask was tolerable (b/c they were all rednecks and thats there thing) but the cross, was fuckin disrespectful... but in my eyes, I don't think the KKK mask was tolerable at all! It was sooo racist! I had never been around people that racist in my life! I didn't realize people were still like that today! I thought we all were better than that. It really pissed off me and Jane. So, then we went to my friend Aarons party, he had 3 kegs. They were makin ppl pay 5 bucks for a cup. Me and jane got one for free, and got other people to fill it up for us. lol. Omg, aaron was soo drunk! hes like NICOLE!!!! CHOO CHOO!!!!! lol, I was like NOO! lol, then he like picked me up and he was like,I'love this girl!!!' I was just all, 'omg.. lol' He was soo funny tho! he's awesome. Then I also saw this kid Dan there and he was all NICole! and he had Hennessy with him, let me try some, never had it before, but it wasn't that bad. Then, Jane didn't feel that comfortable because she didnt really know anyone, so we ended up leavin, then went to her brothers house, and drank some there, then I had a craving for IHOP so, I made us go there. So Me, Jane, and her brother went to IHOP and ate! :-). It was yummi, I ate soo much though! lol. Then after that we went back to Janes house. My sister came down from NJ thursday night, we went to the mall yesturday. I got a cute skirt, and some other stuff. lol. When me and My mom went to pick my sister up from the airport I started crying when I saw her! Omg, I do that every time she arrives and leaves. :(. I only see her like 2 times a year! :(. ♥

We kissed yesturday. =). I found out some stuff about him today though, and it kind of scares me. =( I got a birdie! Its a severe Macaw! Omgsh hes so cute! :-D He rolls over when I pet him! hehe. Omgsh, this kid, who I've been really attracted to in my health class (hes really hott) and we were writing a note together today, and he was all 'I'm memorized by your eyes' I was like 'Yea, ok!' and hes all, 'No, I'm serious, you have beautiful eyes!' lol Awe, it was cute. hehe. ¢¾ Nicole

Omg, I love Jane. I haven't hung out with her in so long. We were headed over to a bon fire last night, when one of her friends called. Her friends had left Sarah at Carlin park. ALONE! No ride home! So we went and rescued her, and brought her home. It took us 30 min. to get there, cuz we were way past the farms. lol. But its all good. So then after we dropped her off, we headed back to the Bon fire. And it took forever to get there. lol. But it was fun. I learned how to pee in the woods! you lean against a tree! and when your done, you wiggle! lmao. I didn't try it though. lol. I also learned how to play hot potatoe! Jane was too scared to try! :(. But it was fun. Hot potato is when you take like the peices of wood (kinda small peices) that aren't on fire/fire. but are still burning, and you pick them up and chuck them at people and pass it around! lol. that was fun! it didn't burn! it was just like a pop! lol it was awesome. My hand was black after wards. lol, I had funn!

Why do you make things so dramatic??