Today has been one helluva day.....Been so depressed only left the house once at 10pm to walk to white hen to get a pop. I've hit an ultimate down... Spent most the day lookin up suicide methods...I really dont want to live anymore... I been changin my sns on msn left and right.... I had it on "How do you tell your best friend you want to die...When you don't want to see them break down and cry" I was talkin to Scott about a movie and I guess he spotted it and started askin questions. He said please don't leave me.....Don't think I've ever heard anything that pathetic before....I thought I was gonna cry...It made me feel guilty.... I kno i'm being selfish...I Love him I really do but I just can't handle all this stress....My parents argueing....my mom bitchin that I am gonna be wearin T's and Shorts in FLA when she knows I'm ashamed of my scars......The fear of failing 8th grade....Sara being a bitch.... the list just goes on. I really just want to die. Nothing makes sense to me anymore, I'm so confused and lost. But i'll type more later...parents are startin to stir