Bought time this site actually worked for me... Man these past few days have been hell. I have Bobby now as a partner, Thats the dude that Melissa filed sexual harrassment against. So anyways Tuesday was the day I got stuck with him and he kept running his hands up and down my leg, I was like dude stop, That feels umconfortable. He's like fine. So 5mins later he's at it again, Only worse he started tryin to get his hands between my legs, I was like DUDE NO! he stopped. Then everytime he raised his hand he would run his hand down my back. I was so happy to get out of that class. Then Wednesday we were partners again, And he was like wanna feel my rock hard cock, I was like dude ur dick is probably the size of a peanut and no i don't wanna feel it. He took my hand, and placed it on his boxers (His pants hang so low, under his ass) I was so pissed, I pulled away and was like dude stop it. Then he started grabbing my chest. I gave up and gritted my teeth the entire class. No one is gonna do anything. My grades in reading have dropped from an A down to a D in a matter of 2wks because of all this harrassment. And Then I noticed in 4th hour I start having attacks like Panic attacks, where I completely freak out, and am like that till 7th hour which is when I have reading. I totally hate this. I dunno but I've noticed how all of this is slowly starting to affect my relationship with Scott, It's like I have problems talking to him. I Love him I really do, But I am starting to get this idea that all guys are just out to get me. I hate it. I've been listening to all of my eagle songs and throwing myself into my writing. And the bad thing is my poems are becoming more and more dark. Here's my latest. "Attack" It's that feeling again The Fear arises once more A cold sweat comes on Damn not that fear Please let me hide I want to be alone No One Touch me It's back All That Pain The Memories Please Make it stop Heart beats faster Starting to shake No more peace Eyes dart back and fourth Searching for a place People all over Can't run The Nightmare has just begun "Panic Attack" I hear No sound Silence is all around Oh No it's a Panic Attack Things go White and Black My heart starts to beat really fast Damn I hope it will pass I start to shake I can't find those meds I need to take All of a sudden Flash backs The Pain and Hell of the Attack A wave of Panic washes over me Never Again, That did I want to see It plays over and over till finally it ends.... I brace Myself Again But it stops, No more I look around to make sure Everything looked Fine The Sun was still shinning But the fear could be read in my eyes The Pain, Terror and Lies Pushing the memories Back into the file, Where it shall stay I, Once again Scurry on my way "Leaving" The end is coming, I can feel it near Once again returns that dreadful fear That I will never see you again After All you are my Best Friend But the voice says It's time for me to go on my way Really! I wanna stay! I don't want to go into the unknown I Never want to leave you alone But I am Being pushed, So I must follow Along Just Rember "All I Wanna Do" Will always be our song A Hug N a Kiss, I Bid you good night Honestly....I tried to Fight.......................... "Good Bye" I hate When I feel Numb Suddenly the urge to slash my wrists comes on I Can't take it anymore! Maybe My dad was right, Maybe I am nothing but a whore Just here to suffer every day I Don't know how much longer I can stay Honestly I Love my friends But I can't hold off the end It's Coming, I know I got the feel I swear the Grim-Reaper is real He talks to me at night And says "Suicide will stop this hellish fight" I know he wouldn't lie to me So you see I must now go As I Venture down below I want you to know, You were the reason I stayed during the past 2years But it caught up with me, The Pain and Fear It's the end Good Bye My friend "Together" What should I do? I have the urge to run to you I don't wanna be stuck here It's you I wish to be near I want to feel your loving arms around me When I awake, It's you I want to see I wear our rings around my neck everyday I know soon I'll have one on my finger, Where it shall For eternity stay You see, I have these ideas of us being one Doing things like going to a baseball game or the park for a run I continue to await the day when we shall meet Till Then I will settle for your voice so sweet As I days fly I know some day we'll be together, You and I Last night I was actually suicidal again. I'm getting scared. All of this is taken its toll, and it's not like anyone will listen to me. Anyways Guess i better go I got class.