Some times, i sit and Think About all the Painful memories I can link If only you knew If only you had a clue So much is going on And It's all totally wrong I'm not suppose to want to die I'm not suppose to constantly cry But yet i do If Only you knew Scars, Cutting, Emotional pain On the edge of becoming insane It scares even me But No one sees If only you knew Memories, Torture, Guys Pain the eyes Anxiety attacks Always looking back If only you knew Suicidal Thoughts, Loosing my mind Looking for that peaceful land I wish to find I'm taking that chance, To jump to the other side Ready to commit suicide If only you knew Maybe you'd know what to do But I push the knife in I couldn't win When you find me I know you'll freak But I have found what I had continue to seek You'll wonder why I did what I had to do If only you knew......