I seriously fucking hate my parents... My dad has been riding my ass from the moment I got home from skool "Empty the dishwasher...Do this do that" My reply... Do it your fucking self! I am not his maid! He is such a fucking asshole...He was bitching that my music was too loud...But yet him and my mom can fuck and scream all night and thats ok...or when like I'm trying to do my homework or sleep he turns up the TV downstairs to the point that the walls vibrate... I'm listening to music on my comp...The Volume isn't that fucking loud! My Parents think they own me.....NewsFlash Dammit they Don't! I am a Human...I have rights! Man today in class...I put on one helluva acting scheme... I had to act like I was happy and shit..Thought it was gonna make me sick. I hate pretending i'm some one else when i'm not. I would love to actually show people how depressed I am... Let them know that every night I sit in my room holding a blade to my wrist wondering if tonight is the night that I'll finally take that leap into the unknown. But yet I have to sit and be quiet about it all. If people knew man they'd have my ass locked up so fast. Then I'd definitly have to hang myself. I really wish this depression would just go away...But then again I'd be afraid if it left. Since I was 7..Cutting has been an outlet...Depression is all i know. It'd blacked out the things I don't want to rember....Well most anyways...It keeps away the thoughts of Sept 2000....And well mostly the reminders of this summer...That's still to recent to forget although i wish i could. I swear just let me die.... Today we had to rerun the mile...Sara and Molly ditched of course...Pathetic pussies. I walked pretty much the whole thing... 16:15 not bad eh...it's an improvement last time was like 20:10 lol.... Man I swear I've been havin more and more problems breathing. Almost passed out in the shower this morning. I kno whats causing it to. Prolonged Exposure to Mold. The Mold from the basement has went up the walls. And i kno thats the reason I can't breath.. been exposed to it for like 2yrs now and counting. Wonder what will kill me 1st...depression or mold...Only time will tell I heard that Dallas and Chris got married..... Dallas is 14...Chris is like 16...I think that's a little too young to be getting married.... Course ya kno thats up to them....Wonder how long b4 Dallas gets pregnant....not long I bet Oh then like Sara is doing Weed now.... She does it once and now its an obsession with her. She's hanging around with Jenny and Trisha....IE the Drug addicts... Don't get me wrong I have done my share of Illegal street and Prescription drugs and I learned my lesson... So like yeah Sara had the balls to go up to Ashley whose she been bugging to quit drugs and asked if she could hook her up with a dealer. Ashley got so pissed! I really don't blame her. Sara shouldn't have done that...She's such a fucking Hypocrite! I hate people like that... I don't think she and I are gonna stay friends for long.... Sara has changed so much in the past year and it's all for worse. She's become the person I thought I was going to...I guess I have way more common sense... Rite now she's on my list of ppl that will be dead b4 High Skool graduation. Speakin of skool I seriously doubt that I am going to graduate from High skool.... 1. I can't stand skool 2. I really hate Authority 3. I'm too goddamn lazy 4. I can't handel living with these assholes any longer I probably will drop out Sophmore year and get a GED....I can't handle anymore sexual harrassment..No More BS... That shit starts to get to ya....I don't need anymore reasons to commit suicide then i already have..Ya kno? oooo I finally talked to Scott...He's being such a sweetheart. As usual...lol....I luv him to death....Can't wait till I make him Mine! hehe.....Newyz I'm tired of typin.... Watchin' Final Destination...Awesome eh? Peace Out