INTRO hallo, readers!! I’M BACK from my 3 weeks at CTY camp at Roger Williams University at Rhode Island!!!! I’ll b nice and warn u now: this’ll b a LONG entry. so 2 get it outta da wayy, I need 2 tell u this’ll take awhile cuz I havent touched a comp or piano in !three weeks! so I’m a bit slow typing this. also, I lost my digital camera. yup. sum1 fucking stole it (yea, I cant believe it either - n brand new 2!!). I lived on disposables for two weeks (it wasn’t good) SCHEDULE so here was my daily schedule 4 those three weeks: 6:15 - wake up, take a shower 7:40 - breakfast at the student union (food was great, btw) 8:30 - out to the quad 8:45 - spots on the quad for class 9:00-12:00 - morning class 12:00 - lunch at student union 12:30 - out to quad 12:35 - classroom spots on quad 1:00-3:00 - afternoon class 3:00-3:20 - quick preparation for activities (back to dorms) 3:25 - quad 3:30-4:30 - daily activities (u pick a new one at every hall meeting at nite) 4:30-5:30 - weekly activities (u pick one and keep it from mon. 2 fri.) 5:30-6:30 - dinner 6:40 - out to quad 6:45 - classroom spots 7:00-9:00 - evening class (study hall) 9:00-9:35 - social time hanging outside the Stonewalls (what we call the dorm buildings) 9:40 - hall meeting, and then whatever until… 10:30 - “LIGHTS OUT, GIRLS!!!” (Rachel Brandell, my RA - residential assistant ) weekends were much different. Friday and Saturday were 11:30 lights out, and dances were on EVERY FRIDAY NITE from 7:00 to 10:00 (I know, rite, it ROCKD). we did different activities on Saturday and Friday too (I‘ll get to that later). PEOPLE I’ll start with my friends. (If I 4got 2 mention u n ur reading this, please leave a comment and I’ll b sure to add u!!!) dormmates: jessica l., jessica m., clare, claire, heidi (CTY BFF), chelsea (BFF and BEST ROOMMATE EVER!!!), anna, rachel, lauren, katherine, susanna, michelle, ariel (I’m SOOO coming 2 ur b-dae!!), nicole, devon, alex, niesha classmates: phil, josh, eddie, heidi, frank, david, louis, peter, chelsea, and detron. (yea, it wuz us 3 grls with EIGHT GUYZ!!!! WHOO!) random friendz: jennifer p., aaron, malcolm (cant remember anymore rite now!!!! ) LOVE continuing: here are the people I crushed on these three weeks: david jimenez (david in my geometry class) wynton (otherwise called as “wonton”) heres the story of me and david. we sat next to each other when classes first started. he was really nice, and I thought he was really sweet. I dunno, I just ended up liking him. he was funny and friendly, and on Friday I asked chelsea if she could ask him casually if he was goin wit any1 2 the dance. then she turned it into a “blind date” thing, and he really wanted 2 kno who it was. he began accusing me, heidi, and chelsea, and eventually heidi cracked because he attacked her the most - they were both mexican, both from L.A., etc. she finally told him (I was like, “My life is ruined!” cuz whenever that happens nuthing evr works out rite aftr the guy finds out). he didn’t believe it wuz me until the weekly activity tho. we had the same one and when we were walking 2 the field, he came ovr and wuz like, “Is it true? u like me?” I took a deep breath and said, “yeah. ok, look. I like you, but u don’t hav 2 go 2 the dance with me.” (I wanted to cancel all that blind date shit.) what was funny after that was that he went, “So you like me? You like me out of everybody else??” I was thinking, what the hell, yes. But I said, “yeah…” then he just walked a bit faster and moved up the line. later at the end of the activity (btw, this was also the time when I lost my digital camera) I was looking for an icepack I got from the nurse earlier for my HUGE mosquito bite. I found david and his friend jordan playing catch with it, so I came ovr to david and was like, “oh, that’s mine. I need 2 give it back.” up to this time, I thought he handled it [the news that I liked him] well, but then david said, “so, like, if u touch me, you’ll be happy?” he started laughing along with jordan who heard it, n I was so pissed. I just said, “just give me the icepack,” and I snatched it from him. at that time, I guessed he wasn’t handling it as well as I thought he was. and then the dance was that nite. I wasn’t expecting anything - I just wanted 2 hav a fun time dancing in the dark gym with my friendz, showing off my moves and stuff. at the slow dances, I did look around for david, but he was nowhere to b found, so I just sat down on the bleachers with my friendz who didn’t hav anyone to dance wit either. near the end of the dance, me and chelsea went to the bathroom. when we came back into the gym, heidi came up to me panting like she’d been running all over to find us. she said, “Irene, david was looking for you! he wants to dance with u!” I was like, what the hell?but then heidi found david and he was like, “You wanna dance?” I was thinking, what the fuck r u doing? did heidi put u up 2 this? I actually thought for awhile until he was getting nervous and was like, “So?” I finally said yes, but then the song ended! (I kno, I’m such a RETARD!!!) I was speechless n david was like, “oh that’s too bad. hey, I‘ll dance wit u next Friday.” then chelsea pulled me off through the crowd of ppl. later, I found out that it was actually david’s idea to dance with me, but then chelsea told me that david told her at the end of the dance, “Oh well. Irene lost her chance.” I’ll just say I was REALLY confused. And then Saturday was casino night. it was gonna be in the same gym as the dance, and evry1 would get fake money. there was gonna be a chapel and tables of blackjack and Texas Hold’em. earlier though, probably during the quad time between lunch and afternoon class, I was sitting on one of the benches surrounded by some of my dormmates, and david was coming over with chelsea and heidi. I was like, okay…. and then heidi and chelsea brought him over in front of me, and then stood aside for him. he said, “will u marry me?” I wasn’t thinking about the chapel at casino night yet, so I was thinking, oh my god, you are so FUCKING cruel!!!! but then I just said, “what?” he went, “Tonight’s casino night and there’s gonna b a chapel. will you marry me?” I was like, oh my god!!and then chelsea shoved david from behind and was like, “Get on your knees!!” I started smiling, because I could tell david didn’t really wanna do that. I said, “okay,” and chelsea was like, “give her the ring!!” he went, “what ring?” and I started cracking up. then david turned around with chelsea and I couldn’t see what they were doing, but when he faced me again, he was holding one of the keyrings from his lanyard. I held out my finger and he put it on (it was soooo corny, lolz) and then he just left awkwardly. eventually, I attached the keyring to my own lanyard (it kept falling off), and then later after a whole day of me thinking that he was really gonna ditch me, we went to casino night. I sat with heidi and chelsea on the bleachers, and then when david came, he came over and was like, “you ready to get married?” I was like, “yeah I guess.” when the casino time started, me and chelsea were just walking around the tables and stuff, but I was really keeping an eye out for david. then I saw him walking over to the chapel with anothr girl - I was soo confused. this happened like twelve times throughout the night, and when I finally told chelsea, she went over to david ande asked him what the hell he was doing. when she came back, she told me that he was probably doing a bet with someone about how many girls he could marry, but she told me that he was going to marry me last so that we wouldn’t hav 2 get divorced (awww, I kno!!) eventually, he came looking for me and we did get married (it was soo awkward - we didn’t even say “I do”; it was “yeah” and “okay”, lolz) with a-bead-on-a-string rings. after chelsea and heidi took pics of us (chelsea tried to get david to hold me by my waist during the pics but it didn’t work, lolz). what really confused me tho afterwards was that rite after pictures, david went off to play blackjack. it was a bit odd 4 me, b/c phil stayed wit hiedi, and detron wit chelsea, so I was like where the fuck is he goin?? later we wanted 2 play couples twister (yes, there wuz twister at the casino lolz) but wen I asked david to come play, he totally blew me off. Confusion, confusion. the few days after that were a bit awkward. I was sorta jealous b/c heidi and chelsea’s guyz stayed wit them, but david was alwayz off sumwhere else (I dunno if I could consider him my boi). during that week tho, they had a daily activity called “married couples” and it was a trivia game for any couples who felt like they knew each othr well from casino nite. I was confused cuz me and david nvr really hung out 2gethr, but then it was david’s idea and he got me 2 sign up 4 it. I wasn’t expecting us 2 do as good! anywayyz, one of the questions was “you’re gonna buy her a ring wit her birthstone. what is it?” he said “sapphire” which was rite, n I was so fucking surprised. when I asked him l8r how he knew, he said, “your pen was blue so i went wit that.” I replied, “no, it was purple.” lolz. so during that week, I guess I could say I had a boifriend. we sat 2gethr as couple wit heidi, chelsea, phil, and detron, but it was alwayz a bit awkward. I’ll also mention that david could do a trick where he could take those double popsicle sticks when there’s two pops joined together, and fit them both in his mouth and bite both off the sticks at the same time -- lolz. I guess what didn’t work out 2 much was the fact that he loved to be fun and perverted, and that’s usually how I am - its just that I couldn’t b that way around him . so on Thursday, I was talkin 2 phil, and he asked me 2 ask heidi if she liked him. she said yes. I told him to ask david if he liked me. he told me that david wouldn’t give an answer and kicked him out of the room. I was getting nervous. turns out l8r that phil asked david again l8r, and he said no. (I trust phil; I asked phil what david’s face looked like when he said it, and phil said he looked like he meant it ) I wasn’t really hurt tho cuz I sorta knew all along that he probly was just taking advantage of me, so I wasn’t too let down. on Friday, howevr, I totally ditched him. I didn’t sit wit them at lunch, and I didn’t talk 2 him at all. no eye contact whatsoever. and I had just as much fun at the second dance as b4. (I’ll get 2 this l8r, but this is around the time I sorta started noticing Wonton) on Saturday, we went to the beach at Colt State Park (3 mile walk there and back in flip-flops because I’m soo stupid) and I got to walk around in my tied-up belly tanktop and capris. I didn’t bring my bathin suit, but eventually I went into the water up to my waist, and I got really wet after chelsea and I had a splash fight! one thing I do remember about david during the beach trip was that me, claire, phil, detron, heidi, chelsea, and a bunch of othr kids we didn’t really kno started a volleyball game at those actual sandy volleyball courts where u can actually dive 4 the ball. I saw david across the park sittin at the benches looking ovr at us. me and claire eventually wanted to get slushies at the long-line concession stand, so we left the game to head to the sand 2 get our stuff. then I saw david get up n start walking towards us - I thought he was gonna try 2 corner me or sumthng. but then we made it 2 the beach so I was all where’s david?I turned around and he was at the volleyball game - lookd like he joined aftr I left. asshole () and then when me and claire finally got 2 the front of the line and got our slushies, they werent playin volleyball anymore, and david was back on the bench looking bored. (I know, rite? fuck.) on the way back to campus we went to Café de la France, a really great café ovr there. I got some cookie dough ice cream with cookies-n-cream frappe. it was GREAT. (lolz, thought u should kno) and then on Sunday and the days after that, I decided 2 sit wit them. since heidi broke up wit phil n chelsea broke up wit detron, n I sorta ditched david, heidi, chelsea, and david had been sittin 2gethr 4 the past few dayz. that day, I sat wit them. I didn’t talk 2 david at all tho - I didn’t even look at him. it was just that I was there. l8r, I found out from chels that david told her, “I thought Irene didn’t like me anymore.” Chels said, “Just cuz she sat wit us doesn’t mean she likes u.” so true. so class wuz normal aftr that, and then on wed. or sumthng, I was watching a card game that I sorta just learned how 2 play, and david came ovr. he kept sayin funny stuff and makin silly comments, and eventually I sensed that he wanted 2 break the ice. I was more open after that day, and I guess our relationship sorta healed. him and heidi left around 10 on Friday in the middle of class (sorta like the last day of school - we werent doing anythng). 4 the past couple of dayz, david had been makin fun of how I said “mario”. I said it wit a flat “a” instead of “mah-rio”. david kept teasing me. on that morning tho, when miss o’neil said they had 2 leave, heidi broke down and started crying. me and chels gave her hugs, but I wasn’t too sure bout how 2 say bye 2 david. I sorta just waved, but about a minute l8r, chelsea hugged him, so I was like, “hey! I betta get a hug.” and I did. me and chels had, like, a 20-minute crying session aftr they left, and I just wanna say that I miss him now. he only put his b-dae and cell # on my contacts paper, so I cant really email him now or nethng. heyy, if you evr get 2 read this, david jimenez, just remember me as your sort-of summer fling at CTY 2005, session 2.