- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - AFTER. Moleca: YOU NEVER TOLD ME HOW TODAY WENT! XD Rini: XD Rini: "Not much" happened? XD Rini: We met at Pelham Parkway Rini: and then we just played it normal Rini: Talking and whatnot, casual Rini: And then I said we should go to Wilkinson Park Rini: And we sat down in that same spot we all were during the Feast Rini: And I just pulled out the folded letter and said, "I wrote something for you" and gave it to him. Rini: And I sat next to him and wound up my arm around his as he read it and just leaned on his shoulder Rini: And then when he was done, he said, "It's okay and kissed me on the cheek." Rini: *"It's okay" Rini: And we talked a while Rini: And he teared while he was reading it Rini: And so I wiped that away, and we were talking about how he hates to cry Rini: And I told him I cried when I wrote the note yesterday. So then now we were both crying lol Rini: And we just stayed there for a long while and talked Moleca: uwahhhhhhhh Rini: After awhile, things went back to normal conversation Rini: At some point though, he did tell me that he still likes me Rini: And I asked him why Rini: And I feel bad, but his reasons were not enough for me Rini: I didn't tell him that of course Rini: But at least that consoled me by telling me that I did the right thing for me Rini: And he is more attached to me than I thought, but I'm not abandoning him. Rini: It's weird Rini: He's brought out both extremes in me: smutty and maternal o_O Rini: I just want to hold him a lot XD Moleca: Hehe awwwww Moleca: I'm glad it turned out well :D Rini: Yeah xD Rini: Though I'm still worried for him Rini: Apparently he cried in the shower Rini: But his status reassures me a bit Rini: And at the same time I still worry XD Moleca: Both feelings are natural I believe xD Moleca: it just takes time :D Rini: True xD Rini: He told me though that he was a teeny tiny bit relieved Rini: Because before, he thought that his first break-up would be something intense Rini: Like his gf was cheating on him or something Rini: So in a way, we both agree that this break-up was "easy" compared to every other way it could have gone Rini: But yeah, he's still hurting Rini: I had something to say but I forgot D:< Rini: OH Rini: I don't know if he fully understands my reason Rini: My reason: I could no longer stay in the relationship when I knew that I wouldn't fall in love with him. Rini: He thinks I did it because I knew I'd be reallyr eally busy during the school year. Rini: It's the reason he chose to focus on in the letter I suppose Rini: At the same time, I don't think he looks at things in the same depth as me Rini: Because I've realized that we view the definition of a relationship differently Rini: He thinks a relationship is to have fun and mine is to fall in love. Like, I don't think he understood my main reason xD Moleca: Uwahhhh, I see I see Rini: I mean, both meanings of a relationship can merge Rini: But.... I"m looking for something deeper than he can offer me, honestly. Rini: I don't know how to explain that to him, but I'm sure you get me. x_x Moleca: Yes yes, indeed I do. xD Rini: But seriously Rini: I was just so RELIEVED after we parted ways at the church Rini: I felt like I had been lying to myself for a good while Rini: And I couldn't enjoy my time with him Rini: Now that this is over, we can be how we were supposed to be. And it was weird that I didn't notice how I had changed in my dynamic with him when I realized what I realized earlier lol. Rini: But yeah, I've talked more with him today and last night than I have in the past week and a half Rini: Everything I had to say was in the letter Moleca: Hehee yay! :D Moleca: So now you're in the clear for inviting him to your birthday ^_^ Rini: Yeahhh Rini: There was an awkward silence at one point today, and I broke it by saying, "By the way, you're still invited to my birthday." Rini: xD Moleca: lmao excellent! :D - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - phyl: hows case Rini: Broke up with him today phyl: oh snap! Rini: Wrote it in a letter yesterday, and handed it to him in person today. Then he read it and we talked awhile and such phyl: WHAT THE FUCK phyl: THATS UNIQUE AS HELL phyl: CALL ME! Rini: O_O Rini: O______________O Rini: I can't! Rini: Parents are sleeping Rini: o_O Rini: What's wrong with typing? Rini: What's the problem? lol phyl: it just surprised me phyl: why today Rini: Well, the group went to Six Flags on Tuesday Rini: And it was a good time and whatnot Rini: But even Chris noticed that we weren't good Rini: And he said I looked kind of annoyed Rini: And I kind of was Rini: by Casey Rini: But yeah Rini: And I felt really bad Rini: I had to give him a slight cold shoulder at some points of the day Rini: I just kept telling him that I was tired, which wasn't entirely untrue Rini: But yeah, after that day, it confirmed it for me that I really had to break up with him AKA no fixing this phyl: okay thats cool Rini: And the day after I didn't get on my computer at all, and Thursday, Moleca told me that Casey was worrying a lot because I always say good night to him Rini: Basically, she told me that the worry was killing him Rini: So I "put him out of his misery" in that case. But yeah, I got it over with today Rini: Besides, tomorrow would have been our two-month Rini: And I wouldn't have been able to see him until after the weekend Rini: It would have been so awkward tomorrow trying to act like I was enjoying the two-month when really I needed to break up with him Rini: And what did you mean "that's unique as hell" O_o? Rini: I don't appreciate being ignored -_- phyl: who writes out phyl: what they want to say in a written letter phyl: especially if its a break up phyl: then hands it to the other person phyl: and stays there Rini: I'm not a coward. Rini: That would be an asshole move to do. Rini: I wrote it down so I wouldn't miss anything Rini: Because I tend to leave things out in a conversation Rini: So I got to be completely truthful and truthfully complete phyl: thats a cool explanation. phyl: still unique phyl: you should do it every time Rini: lol, I don't understand your underlying meaning, but I think writing the letter was much easier than saying everything and it also let me be completely honest, so yeah, I might lol. Rini: Hey I'm going. Good nightt. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Rini: Ah, if you're not busy, may I ask you something? Chris: yes? Chris: I'm not busy, go ahead :] Rini: Casey told me he walked with you, so I'd just like to know if he's feeling okay about today; and if he's not, if he will be okay? :[ Chris: Ahh yeah I heard Chris: Umm honestly I think he is okay, but I'm sure he feels that things could be better Chris: It was sorta random that it happened to him, because he just realized everything he told me Chris: Don't feel bad because you guys broke up, its your decision :] Chris: Every man shuold respect a woman's decision Chris: Be it rational -_- not something ridiculous Rini: lol That's understandable. Rini: Thank you Rini: This wass rational Rini: I've talked with him, but yes, I'm still worried, so I just wanted to know for sure from a 3rd-party Chris: Yeah he's okay, you guys are still friends right? Rini: Of course! Rini: I would be so sad if we weren't :[ Rini: But yes, I just wanted to make sure how he is Chris: I hate when I see couples break off and they hate each other -_- Chris: Its just wierd lol Rini: lol Rini: We started off as good friends and we'll end up that way :] Chris: If its meant to be it'd happen Rini: Casey and I both agreed on that too. Chris: Thats good :) Chris: I'd be depressed if I lost my bebeh at this point x.x Rini: :[ Rini: Well, you have Moleca and I hoping that's not happening lol. Rini: If anything, Casey and I never had what you and Ivy have now, for sure. Chris: Ahh but it happens to us all Chris: We all lose our first love Chris: And we get a new one, understanding what we really want Chris: Thats my concept on love...and I think I found my true love Rini: I'm happy to hear that Rini: :] Rini: Though what Casey and I had wasn't love. That was partly the reason I had to break up with him. Rini: I found out that I was looking for something deeper than what we had would ever go. Rini: If that's understandable. x_x Chris: Thats understandable Chris: XD Chris: You need chemistry in a relationship Rini: Yes, and not just hormonal chemistry xD Rini: So yeah, I learned a lot from this Chris: Hormonal chemistry XD thats hilarious Rini: XDDD Rini: And yet I'm so serious! lmaooo Chris: Nowadays couples just want to kiss all day lol Rini: LOL Chris: Its okay once in a while Rini: -Casey cough- Chris: oh -burn- Rini: Didn't mean it that way XD Rini: But yes. Chris: I look into seeing the imperfections of someone Chris: Which entitles getting to know every bit of their soul Rini: You're wise far beyond your age, Chris, lol. Rini: And precisely on the right track Chris: xD Rini: It's weird to explain, but you and Ivy would inspire any other couple to build for what you two have lol. Chris: I hear that alot and it makes me happy ^_^ Chris: Maronel has said it Rini: :] Chris: Moleca Rini: lollllll, Maronel! XD Chris: You Rini: Random person xD Chris: Alot of people Rini: Well, it's true. Rini: DUDE Chris: Yeah I know but she's deep sometimes Rini: EVEN MY MOM Rini: AND Chris: :O your mom ? Rini: SHE ONLY SAW YOU GUYS FOR ONE DAY Rini: She CONDONES your relationship Rini: Even though it goes against her idea of teenage relationships! Chris: :O Chris: Lmfao Rini: Because of what she witnessed in that one day Rini: I found out that she would allow me to have a relationship if I were really in love. Chris: Lol damn Rini: I thought that was amazing. Rini: Oh, one day = Six Flags day lol Chris: yeah I know Xd Chris: XD Chris: I dunno what I'd do without Ivy >_> Rini: Me neither. Rini: lol Chris: XD Chris: I'm getting off before moms starts teh bitching Chris: :] good night Irene ^^ Rini: Alright! Rini: Good night Chris :] Rini: Thanks again Chris: No problem, if ya ever need me you know where to contact me Rini: Same to you :] Rini: Sleep well :] Chris: bye-bee :]