I just got back from St. Joseph's Seminary for the St. Patrick's Festival Choir Christmas Concert. It was great, but I'm so exhausted! I was standing in usually-comfortable-but-not-for-two hours black pumps, and my feet want a rub. :[
Anyhow, it snowed. :D
AND I tried out the brand new Steinway at the library. It will be PERFECT for the competition I'll be playing for today. =w=. Perhaps I'll win something? :o
Though... I'm very tired.
And my sister is... still talking to me.
About issues that she thinks have to do with other people but really have to do with herself.
Did I mention I'm exhausted and my eyes are getting that dry feeling from insomnia that I believe is resulting in my blindness? -- Ugh, and her signal just disconnected her.
Honestly, what I want to tell her is to let it go. That she's stressing over nothing. That I can see why the other party would criticize her for being a hypocrite -- only because the grudge she thinks they're holding against her is the same grudge she holds in her heart.
Ah, isn't prudence such a wonderful thing? So is the privacy of thought.
Anyhow, though, this is one of those times when I know that I'm a semi-selfish person inside but that I'm not ashamed of it. At least in particular moments like these. When people are in negative moods, I tend to want to just avoid them -- well, it really dpeneds on the mood I'm in. But recently, they've been coming to me for an ear... especially my sisters, who have helped me so much. Therefore, I stop and listen. More out of courtesy and predecided obligation to repay them for all the time they've spent on me than for a willingness to pass up sleep for gossip.
But I'm so exhausted. ;___;
Good night soon? [Hopefully.]
*Ai-Rini
P.S.
Alright, I take back some of the things I typed up there.
12:45:14 AM Rini: You ought to let things happen as they may
12:45:22 AM Rini: You've tried your hardest to actively change things
12:45:29 AM Rini: You've tried talking to them and whatnot
12:45:32 AM Rini: All the gestures ahve been from you
12:45:37 AM Rini: Therefore, the ball is in their court
12:45:42 AM Rini: It's up to THEM to fix it
12:45:49 AM Rini: If they don't, they're not worth worrying about
12:45:54 AM Rini: If they do, then it's happy all around
12:46:13 AM Rini: But this is one of those things that doesn't deserve to take up your precious daily thought
12:46:27 AM Rini: Just to reminisce on once in awhile, or until things change
12:46:31 AM Rini: <3 Dear, I have to go
12:46:40 AM Rini: I have a piano competition recital, and I must get sleep!
12:46:42 AM Rini: Good nightttt
12:47:08 AM Ivy: aww okay
12:47:22 AM Ivy: good luck tomorrroww! omg ive been wanting to im u to ask u how everything has been!
12:47:30 AM Ivy: god and yesterday i had to go cause my mom got mad lol
12:47:33 AM Rini: xDD
12:47:38 AM Rini: *Good luck today xP
12:47:42 AM Rini: Things have just been epically good
12:47:42 AM Ivy: thank you for listening, even if its about silly things >< <3
12:47:46 AM Rini: Too good to put into words
12:47:52 AM Rini: You're welcome sis <3 :D
12:47:53 AM Ivy: lmfao *today* xD
12:47:58 AM Rini: Yeah word DX XD
12:48:15 AM Ivy: lol xDD
we'll talk at school so u could tell mika and I during hr :D
12:48:23 AM Ivy: but eee alrighty, night sis :]
tyyyy <3
12:48:36 AM Rini: :D You're welcome, good niiiiiiiiight :D
12:48:59 AM Ivy: night ^^
I do it because I help them. I may be annoyed, I may be exhausted, but it's all worth it when I hear them say, "Thank you. For listening. For helping."
Knowing I've helped share their burden makes it alll worth it. Even if I don't sense that whileee I'm in the midst of doing said sharing of burden. Maybe I'll work on that more. :]
Haha. Feeling better this late night. I'm out :]