[17] Hide and Seek

Feeling: annoyed

So today was a thing.



I woke up later than I wanted to, which was kind of annoying/meh. I can't really tell you what I did for most of the day except work out, clean, and play WoW which was okay. Oh, I had Taco Bell for lunch, that was fun.



I'm really annoyed with two of my friends and have mentioned them before - Linus and Scott. Linus still hasn't spoken to me or anything since the bullshit I mentioned last time. It's getting me mad and his silence is slowly picking away at the scar I fought to make to cover the wound he made the last time he hurt me. If it goes away then there's no going back for us. And I hope he understands that.



As for Scotty, he was frustrating as hell today. We got into it because I found out he's been using not healthy means to deal with his problems - like the stuff I used to do, which isn't good. I tried to tell him that he needs to leave his situation (he has tons of friends who would be more than willing to take him in) because it's not healthy for him to live in an abusive situation. It's going to form lasting if not permanent scars that he'll have to fight to fix. And he just kept making excuses.



Apparently he's been conditioned to believe that the whole fate of the family rests on his head. If he doesn't live there and help out/worry about the finances his family will be on the streets. I told him that's ridiculous because HE IS 17 AND (LEGALLY) A CHILD AND THE FATE OF AN ENTIRE FAMILY SHOULD NOT REST ON HIS HEAD. Like in what world does that make sense? It shouldn't be up to him to save the day and keep the family safe. That job falls to his parents. It's shitty for them to make him feel like he needs to suffer in order to protect them.



It just made me mad enough that I had to stop talking to him because if I didn't I was going to explode and it would have been bad. Heh, who says I haven't learned anything? :P



I think in some ways this is karma for how stubborn/frustrating I was when I was younger. I swear, my aunt and some select friends deserve muffin baskets for putting up with me.



On other topics - I have to figure out what to make for dinner. I have a crapton of ingredients in the kitchen...it's just up to me to decide what to make with it all. And then the rest of the night is reserved for Anthony and I to have happy fun time which is basically whatever we want to do. So yay.

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