one of the worst nights i can remember in a long time. i went 2 days without sleeping and decided to sip on some yeager.. heh good idea. i damn near passed out at D's house about 4 times, totally wasted the whole night trying to keep myself awake, striving to stay in the conversation, but my lack of energy/sanity proved to be too much for me. completely fucked up talking to julie, due to me drinking 3 hours before i actually GOT TO D'S. I was all wrecked by 10pm, which is absolutely no fun for anybody, including myself. i posted up between dara and julie for most of the night, dazing in and out of conciousness due to overexhaustion. i completely fucked my entire night, as usual. Seriously, if i could take tonight back i would, it was a complete failure in my book. I even called jules aside to purposely get that shit behind me but i completely failed due to my alcohoism. I just wish i could fix everything. I dno, just another failure in the life of me. The night started out good, but just went drastically downhill as soooooooon as i got to Dara's. I dno what to say..fuck it im out. I put myself in one of the worst fucking situations EVER. i shoulda known better. I even stated that i dont drink anymore due to me doing STEWPID. fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail