All I do is whine and complain to anyone anymore. Why must I make other people become part of ALL MY STUPID PROBLEMS? What the hell is wrong with me to think that I must be this selfish? Read my last two entries, it's all 'I..I..I..' Who thinks like that when there are plenty of people out there who have more to worry about than I do! I am a failure at life. I'll admit to that right now and let it rest, for if we dwell on the present than we may never live the future right. There is no longer anything to look forward to though. Seeking help is always an option but what do I tell them? That I am practically breaking into tears because I have no friends that I feel care for me,that even though I say I do not want love, I just want someone to hug me and let me cry on their shoulders that I am ugly than ever so that it what makes me depressed. What do they do then? Tell me to suck it up? Because that is what I NEED to do. I WANT to run away, to a far off place where no one knows of me, a small town where everyone likes each other and you have all the stores and other such places anywhere you need and you never have to see other towns again. Never..yes, it is a fantasy and reoccuring dream. But the time has come for me to complain to myself and only myself as there is no one in my life to tell this to, and expect comfort out of it. Just an end to all of the lies...