Today Friday thank god. I am just sitting here listening to music. Thinking about life, everything that has happened . I am starting to wonder were I will be in 10 years? The future never used to scare me , I used to think " I have the rest of my life to decide" . . . but in the past few days , I don't know how to explain . I keep thinking in less then a year and half I will be 18 . What will I do then ?? I have to admit my grades arn't amazing . Im not even sure if I will got to university or not . It bothers me .... who will I know ? What will I be doing ?? I hope to god I am not still working at shoppers drugmart, haha and if I am I better be running the place. A year and a half is not a long time. . . especially now when I am in youth and time is going quickly all the time. I am afriad of one thing imperticular , who will I lose in that time?? To lose someone is like the feeling you get when you are mid fall , halfway to the ground and your heart is in your throat . I have no idea what I would do if I were to lose one of the people I have known since elementary school. They are not friends to me they are my family. To lose them would be like losing my sister . You have no idea how much I love you all.