it is killing me that i am missing him as of now. it's like: stupid kristina, just move on. but i was so accustomed to telling him everything, every little thing that happened, i was eager to tell him. and now i don't have him, not even as a friend, as he so promised to be. i should be hating his guts right now and don't get me wrong, i am pissed off at how he mishandled this whole thing. but it's weird. it's not easy with this one.