I don't even know anymore. Everything and nothing all at once. I said when I could get everything back that I had then, I would be content. I've got most of it back and I've never been more bitter as I am now. It's entirely possible that it's because no matter how hard I fucking try I can't replace him, I can't feel the way he made me feel anymore. :( Take a good look at your life, And you'll see all the things you missed. Everything feels like it's coming together again, but it's not what I want anymore. Atleast this week is the last week of highschool for me, ever. Having a summer job is sweet too. I 100% garuntee that if I don't slow down I will be dead before summer ends.