I've had a few crushes, I've "liked" very few people... How many boys have I honestly, truly, loved and wanted with all my heart and then some? One. I saw him tonight. We walked in to the restaurant 'cause my friend wanted garlic fingers, and there he was standing in line with a couple of his buddys [one of which was hot, for the record.] He turned around, smiled, and laughed at me like he always used to. For him to even acknowledge FINALLY that I still exist was enough to kill me. All he has to do is flash his adorable little grin and I fall in love over and over again. It was months ago, and I'm still not over it. I'll never be over it. Every time I see him, I wish more than anything for a second chance. The odds are defintely not in my favor. He could be my everything. I rarely put anyone's needs ahead of mine, but I would make him and whatever he wanted my top priority. I would NOT let this boy go again. I WOULD NOT even give him the chance to think about it. When he poked his head around the corner the second time to laugh I died a little inside. And that's why I can't stand him. I know him, really well. I know basically everything. I have seen the good, the bad and the ugly. This boy is perfect. We proceeded to not get anything, make it look like we went in there to see him and make ourselves look lame, haha. I was then fortunate enough to see his girlfriend at Tim Horton's. Anyway, about the rest of my day. Went to school, was pissy all day because I didn't have enough sleep. I fell asleep during second and was woken up by someone I cannot even fucking stand to look at. Goddamn. 3rd and fourth periods were hilarious though, like they always are, and that made me a little happier. I napped, woke up & then we went out. Now I'm home & bored. I am addicted to MySpace and I wanna die. I'm staying home tomorrow 'cause I can, and we have Friday off. Extra long weekend. I'm 90% sure I'm expirimenting with some new shit after prom on Saturday, wooooh. ♥ I'll likely pass out or die before the clock even strikes midnight. 'til next time...