So stoked to have this lil diary again.

Just ended a 7 month relationship.. or 6.. I have no idea. It was going fine. Great girl who did everything for me. But thats not what I want right now. I have much bigger fish to fry and so does she.
Were still good friends which I would say would make this the most successful relationships I've been in. That being said, I'm glad its over.

I can now focus on all the things that I don't do. The things that I constantly beat myself up for not doing. The things that I WANT. It may be selfish, but I am ready to be a little selfish for the sake of my future contentment.

The first step is getting out of this little studio and finding a 1bedroom with a bigger yard for my dogs. The property being sold is a clear sign that change is needed.

Then I need to get a new condenser microphone and start recording everything. everything everything everything. And make music constantly

And I really need a new skateboard... I haven't skateboarded much at all in this past year that I've been driving and I think it has started to mentally take a tole.

At this point I am more than possitive my friends think I have changed into a cynical person who recieves little to no joy out of life. And they may be right. But none of them can really understand whats happening in my life and I supose it isn't fair of me to think otherwise. So I am going to continue to do what I do free of guilt and with some determination I think I will find myself in a much better place soon.

The worst kind of stress is one coupled with excitement. You almost don't want to shake it, though its killing you :)