Its been 3 weeks today, free but I'm becoming more trapped by myself something i haven't been and needed to be I've lost all hope and gained so much faith I've been looking back on my past relationships and the ones that have really mattered learning the meaning of reliance and the meaning of independence, the meaning of reliability and of expectation also that fault is a perception and a need for dependence... if i could say that. also that there is no better trial than time people are different for whatever reason, some more deeply rooted than others. you cant expect anyone to understand or deal with your own baggage, and im tired of people thinking that. "accept me for who I am". maybe I'm wrong but i feel like you should be who you would want to love. because if you cant love yourself, than how could you expect someone else to? otherwise your building a dependence on a love you need and couldn't feel on your own. shouldn't be like that. I'm not saying love your replica, sometimes our differences make us beautiful; a chaotic harmony....... ahh that sounds so wonderful like waking up to a bedhead the morning after, staring at you with eager-uncertainty and excitement followed by a good morning kiss FAITH