so today was long. it started with my parents and I hating each other. and it ended with me and my parents hating each other. so prom.... prom was um.. i dont know. the limo was an hour late and it was the wrong one. then we went to dinner and Mercades, just having knee sergery, fell, making her unable to walk. so then we went to prom all late. it was shitty. some things were said that killed me. then a lot of drugs after to restore my pathetic connection with the world. and i was surprised that i didnt get tested on sunday. i got home at 3.30 am. madison looked soo beautiful. i dont think she had any fun though. but i cant really blame her. i wish there was more i could do to make her happier. i feel like im not good enough. and as i would much rather be confident, it was all burned up thanks to these shit talking teenage girls. again. ive been getting drunk with my family a lot. i dont know what that means. i guess its good. its more time i spend with them. but each time i hear things i wish i didnt. things that have now altered my life. im not sure about all this. i guess were going to start seeing a family therapist. which i hope will help. i doubt it though. so no more drugs for glenn. i think shes proud of me. i got a really good grade on my math test and homework. it was nice. i hope i dont have to take summer school. cause that would cause me to.... fuck i dont know. i'd probly just complain about it.. then possibly light something on fire. but thats it. i miss her right now. a lot. its funny how shes always on my mind. i cant focus. its all blury. my friend from work was telling me about a $2000 rare camera lense he is going to buy. and i was thinking, its amazing how much people will go through to distort the way they look at something. and then i took another hit. (no im kidding but u get the point) well... im kinda tired of writing about today. goodnight I love you