i wish i could find another girl that makes me really happy. im learning the difference between someone making you happy and you being happy for them. i think i used to think that was the same thing.
i dont go to parties. i dont need to be fucked up to meet someone cool. i think theres too many teenagers who r like that. i mean parties are all good n fun but i dont think the drama associated with them is worth it. its like n e girl tied to that scene is also tied up in its drama wich makes it real unapealing.
I was watching that movie What Women Want with mel Gibson. he plays a guy who can hear what women are think. n e ways he starts out as an asshole and mistreats some really nice girls wich just pissed me off cause i wish some girl could read my mind. i wouldnt mind letting you know everything. i have nothing to hide.
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I got in a fight with my dad tonight. i came home and ate around 6. he told me that taco salad sounded good to him, assuming that he knew i had eaten. when he had finished makng the family taco salad (wich i didnt know he did) he blew up on me because i had already had my dinner. tonight though i didnt just let him yel at me and jab his pointed finger into my chest. i got on my toes and yelled into his beety little eyes. im not gonna be subject to brute force and screaming any more.
i realized that ive always obayed what he says because i ve been afraid. he wasnt as nice as he is now to me. no he wanted to scare me young. but its been a while since hes been real violent with me. so i think im finnaly been able to come out of my shell and stand up for myself. it felt real nice to make him look like a worthless piece of shit in front of my family for once.
and what was more sad is my family looked at me as though i was leading them, all looking to me for strength. tyranny has no place in the development of a healthy country, just so it has no place in the raising of a family.
im done
Keep your thoughts uplifted,your spirt will follow