I try to write about my feelings on here. No such luck. I try to write something real, something that is happening to me but instead I just keep pretending. I just keep writing about somebody else, somewhere else. I'm smothering myself in fiction. There are things I want to talk about and things I should be talking about that I could only do here. I don't think I'd be able to do it in person. You know, because to talk to you, well I couldn't bare for you to see my face all cut up and torn with feelings.