because that would ruin it. i want to ruin it. i really like to break things apart and underline them. italicize them. it stresses something that isn't there. meaning. much like a big plan i have. a big plan to wander through life until i see things i know i need and i'll catch them. i'll infect myself with them so i can carry them for sure. for reassurance. it has no meaning. i have meaning, some, but it makes me crazy. i want to lie still and be able to move things with my mind. she said, "your sick." I said, "you don't have to be sick to be dead." the only capitalized letter to start out a sentence is n. n for no...