183 - Die Dead Enough

It's twilight and I wake up hot My body's soaked in a cold, cold sweat I re-enact the lurid scenes And clawed engravings in my head Oh, I can't punch hard enough (and I run) I can't kick high enough (and I run) I can't shoot straight enough (and I run) I can't hold on enough (and I run) Oh, I can't stay down enough (and I run) I can't take pain enough (and I run) I can't bleed fast enough I can't die dead enough The air is thick, but the oxygen's thin My heart is beating like a drum (boom!) And ice is flowing through my veins Explosives on my lips and in my lungs Oh, I can't punch hard enough (and I run) I can't kick high enough (and I run) I can't shoot straight enough (and I run) I can't hold on enough (and I run) Oh, I can't stay down enough (and I run) I can't take pain enough (and I run) I can't bleed fast enough I can't die dead enough I don't know what I'm running from And I don't know where I'm running to There's something deep and strange inside of me, I see I don't know what I'm running from And I don't know where I'm running to Something's compelling me to run into the dark And now I am more driven than before And now I live just to settle score And now I feel the nearness of you breath Now I introduce you to your death I am more driven than before I live just to settle score I feel the nearness of your breath I introduce you to your death I can't punch hard enough I can't kick high enough I can't shoot straight enough I can't hold on enough I can't stay down enough (die dead enough) I can't take pain enough (die dead enough) I can't bleed fast enough (die dead enough) I can't die dead enough (die dead enough) Die Dead Enough - Megadeth 9:49 PM Ah...yet another entry. Not sure why I'm here, but meh. Now that my ex doesn't work at the store anymore I've noticed her friend who I work with has started to get awfully friendly with me. But meh. That's all that I really have to say.
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this comment is directed to the entry before this one. idk if you'd have seen it if i commented down there: i'm sorry. i really am :[ and honestly, if it wasn't going anywhere [or if she wasn't making any effort] then it was good to have broken it off before it DID get worse. so screw the ppl who thought it was stupid for you to have broken up due to "just that." whatever. and it's sad [not in a bad way] that you're trying to reach out but..
no one is letting you in :[ that is quite awfully lonely, and i'm sorry for that :[ [sigh]. unfortunately, "i'm sorry" doesn't do very much, sometimes :[