9:28 PM Random song time! I wrote this on my spare, after a picture that my sis drew in her book thing. There was some hooded figure walking around in the dark, and the title of the drawing was "The Darkness Walks". So here goes: The Darkness Walks Depression and sadness Ravaging my mind. Darkness and sorrow Tearing my insides. I won't be brought down By this pain. I'll need you now, Before I go insane. 'Cause without you, The darkness walks. Here without you, The darkness walks. Stuck in the blackness Without any light. Got to break free Try and make it right. I've almost lost it, I don't know what to do. I'll need you now, To help me through. 'Cause without you, The darkness walks. Here without you, The darkness walks. (solo) Waking up, From a horrible dream. It's amazing how real They can seem. I stil need you To make things right. Don't make me scream Another sleepless night. 'Cause without you, The darkness walks. Here without you, The darkness walks. The darkness walks... But anyways... I'm killer bored. I need to lash out. But I can't. I've got a lot bottled up I need to let go, but for some reason I can't. There's a lot of family stuff, problems with people I know, school junk and plenty of other things that make me angry, but for some reason I just can't let it all out. I think I have discovered the reasoning my random periods of anger. ... I need a good friend. A good friend who isn't distracted by people, girlfriends, family problems or stupid people. I need a good friend who will just be themselves around me. I also need a good friend that I can be myself around. I don't really have one of those. Sure I can be myself around people, but they're got way too many distractions, and whenever I need somebody to talk to about stuff there usually isn't anybody there. I need to change. - I can't find a job. - I still have to learn to drive. - People ignore me. (Probably because I don't talk much) - I can't hold onto a girlfriend for long anymore. I've stopped blaming other people for my problems, and I'm beginning to realize that it's not their fault that things go wrong. It's gotta be mine. It usually takes some horrific event that's transpired to make me think like this, and one hasn't happened, but I can't stop typing when I know I should, because eventually I'm going to offend somebody. People need to realize what's unobtainable. They need to stop reaching for some things, which they obviously can't get, and see the good things right in front of them. Like a lot of people need to stop looking at the bad, and start looking at the good. The bad will fade away if you ignore it. It always does. The bad will realize that you don't give a flying shit about it anymore, and the good will be strengthened. The good will always be there, even if you don't see at times. So for the love of God, shut up about the bad things. 'Cause you've got a lot of good things to take your mine off them. I realize I'm contradicting what I said earlier about the bad things, but I know all this will blow over eventually, and I'll be fine. So HA. I continue to focus on the good things no matter what, and I end up fine. I always do. But I'll be fine. I always am.