so, i'm feeling pretty crappy. i Can't get him out of my head, And I don't know what is wrong. i don't want to feel this way, i never did. it's not like i can control how i feel. i thought i was over him. i'm so scared, no one wants to feel like this, being friends is not enough for me, just thinking about being with him and seeing him, it gets me soo happy. then i remember that it'll never happen, and that i need to forget about it. but, i can't..and it always ends up making Me sad. i can't tell him how i feel, i've already done that, and it didn't work. besides, i don't take rejection well, i get all Emotional, and i can't handle normal situations. i thought that i was ok, i told myself that boys would not be an issue this summer. i told myself that i could have a healthy crush, and more then one healthy crush. i thought that i was doing the right thing, but maybe holding back my Real feelings isn't the right thing, maybe it's the Opposite...maybe i should just take the risk. who am i kidding? i did take that risk..it got me Nowhere, and it left me with a broken heart. this is so bad for me. this is not going to make me happy...he obviously doesn't care enough..so why should i? god--what is wrong with me.