I would like to respond to this extract. Never was I aware that Rae's love for me is outrunning her love to Joel and never did I consider this, since Rae admitted that she loves me, but on the other side; doesn't. Clearly, there is a misunderstanding as well: I'm not worried about Rae going out with Joel or someone else next year, I'm simply afraid that since Rae made it clear that her commitment (Marriage) is equal between Joel and me, it could develop if Rae and Joel go out to relive the past. Even though Rae tells me that Joel only lasts a year, it still worries me, because of her commitment. I cannot loose Rae, I cannot, but if I do, which I will find out when I come back for good, forever; if I do loose Rae then yes I will take my life. It's Rae or no one, and without love, true love, you cannot live. That is how much I love Rae.