well - got a lot of thoughts in my head right now. Its hard to write the entries from my book into here....a lot of thoughts and memories come up. I dunno...something wrong - its either me, or Rae, or maybe both of us. Aside from that, I know that there is definatly something with me....I can merely feel it. Like I'm living through something. Its been so hard to really make use or sense of my thoughts lately. Get a clear thought of anything and I dunno - god these last days have really been weird. maybe its the sleep I didn't get....I haven't slept for quite a while. I simply haven't been able to. I lie awake in bed, with absolutely everything (not nothing) on my mind, and I can't sleep. I fear for the worse that something is building up inside of me, waiting to be released. am I sane? Wanted to talk to Danny out of pure desire to get my anger out... ...is there something wrong with me? and what is it? ...i feel I'm gonna collapse soon. I need help.