It seems I'm not capable of getting the fact across that I will return and when I do, it will be for Rae. I've talked to my parents, the dream is so, so close. Having gone through all these times with Rae, I won't give it up. I can't sleep, can't eat, can't laugh without her. We'll meet again, but I won't be able to keep the dream, if Rae will willingly get into pot and other drugs. I won't be able to. It hurts me, and if she will change and develop an addiction, things will go down the drain. I love Rae, I love her more than life itself, but I'm getting hurt because I care about her so much. Today she wasn't in 3 of her classes, I'm surprised of I'll see her at all today. I'm worried, I've only seen her this morning and shortly fell into her arms, before she gave me a strafe through my hair and left.