Wow i've had a long week...Well i went to my dads house for the week. I went shoping at the mall with Kim and Chelsea. I got lots of things. I spent about 180 bucks...haha. but i got lots of stuff. i got new shoes...they're cool. new clothes. new jewlery. umm...we went swiming at my aunt loris house. got the dog groomed. hung around. went to babysit with chelsea. went swimming at their house. got ice cream. went to the park. stayed up talking to will almost every night.
umm i was gonna go to the mall with chelsea and her friend justin but i went fishing instead. she didnt get home until 7 in the morning...haha little devil...
ooo chelsea puked in the car. on our way to the mall she threw up all over the side. he blood sugar was high. she ate ceral w/ milk. and on the way to the mall she puked in hte car a bit. then rolled down the window and it splattered all over the side. i was sitting in the back seat cheering her on i was like "OOHH MAN...UGGG...YUCK" haha it was funny. when she was done shes like "yeah" and she called her friend and was like "i got it good." it was funny.
I guess last night will called my moms house at 4 in the morning and woke my mom up...oops. i have to talk to him about that. i fell asleep on the couch a few times at my dads so he called my moms house to see if i was there but i was at my dads sleeping the whole time...
i tried calling him today but it kept ringing. i hope hes alright. i love him so much...me and him just can hardly hang up the phone b/c i dont wanna leave...hehe then thats about it.
johnna might come over tomorrow...idk I have to upload my pics too..
i have to call ashley too.
when i got home today from my dads i had a spliting headache. it was bad. i thought my head was gonna explode. its gone now.. after i rested for a bit.
i had to restore my computer because i got a virus sent on AIM from someone. then the same thing happened at my dads house. they had to re-do the computer.
but thats been my week. i had TONS of fun. i didnt want to go. when it was time to go my dads like "you dont want to go do you?" i said "not really" lol
well i'm gonna do my thing for my pictures i think..i really need to update that...
-Kayla
Ahh..well this past weekend was fun and not so fun. Well friday i was at my dads house. umm i dont even know what days these happened on. Well i know one night me chelsea and johnna snuck out and walked down to the dandy. and we called will and he was having a really bad day and a lot more then that. i was sitting there crying in the dandy and my sisters talking to will and trying to calm him down and he wanted to talk to me and when he did i had to put the phone down becasue i was crying. it was jsut really really bad.
Chelseas friends came in and they sat by us in the dandy. they were pretty funny. then my brother casey came in stoned. haha. he said to chelsea "are you here with kayla" and then hes like 'whats she driving" haha i dont even drive yet..chles is like "since when does she drive?" haha...
well we were still talking to will...me johnna chels and her 2 friends that were sitting with us left and we were walking across the bridge. and i layed on the bridge in towanda. I was laying on the barrier that seperates the side walk from the road. I've never seen route 6 that empty before. but if a mac truck would of went by i would of fallen off..but i was talking to will looking at the stars. there are some huge ass spiders on taht bridge. i swear to god i've never seen so many spiders in my life. i was freeking out. then my emotions got over me and johnna had a gatorade bottle and i threw it all the way across the bridge on the other side. i made it too. i thought it was gonna land in the road. and i was wearing the bracelect that tom D made me and it fell off. i thougth it was just my hair tie so i was like ok w/e just a hair tie. and then the next day i realized that it was the bracelet so i was upset about that.
Then me and johnna were walking up the hill to my house. and i fell up the stairs because my legs were killing me and they were weak from that huge hill we walked up without stopping. i'm so out of shape. but yeah. and then i think the next night i needed to call will so i used my dads cell phone without him knowing. and then i took a sip out of my dads beer. it didnt taste that bad and when johnna took a sip she about threw up. and will was like "dont start drinking" i'm like "ok baby i wont" and during the day my dad was sleeping while i was using his cell phone and he woke up and i freaking sprinted in the living room saying "will i have to go bye i love you. i got to go" and i ALMOST got caught by my dad. i was getting really close to getting caught by my dad this weekend...haha
well that was about it..oh the fire company came to our house. my dad was burning papers in the woodstove and someone called the fire company on us. haha. we have new neighbors and they're pricks. they already called the humain socitey on us becasue our dogs bark. and they called the cops on us because our yard wasnt mowed...come on how retarded. umm...what else.
oh yeah last night i was jumping over a gate. you know those little gates you put up in door ways for like dogs or little kids. well i was jumping over that. it was fun. and we got ourselves all prettied up so we took pictures. umm yeah so i was being really reblious this weekend. im proud of my self. oh yeah chels came home drunk. haha it was great. she should get drunk more often. shes a fun drunk. hehe. so me and johnna were picking on her. haha...
but yeah...
i got a myspace...my sn is ski08...i think the link is www.myspace.com/ski08 idk... will wants me to send hot pictures of me to him. i keep telling him i'm not pretty and he insist that i am. lol but i dont think i am. and chels and johnna were saying that i look good in ever picture...haha yeah right.
but i was just talking to will...haha...
and i have to call him back at 12 because his dad wants him in bed at 10. he starts school this thursday..:( i wont be able to talk him as much...well i wont beable to any way because i'll be grounded. omg last night johnna fell asleep in the chair and i put cheese wiz in her mouth.haha i took pictures too. and i couldnt hang up with will taht night becasue i couldnt resist him..
evertime he tell me he loves me or calls me baby or makes me feel good...i just get this feeling and its ugg so hard to explain. like butterflies but better. like your the lightest person on the earth and you could float away...its just great. and he gave me that feeling so good last night. it wouldnt go away..i love him so much. sigh..
i wrote him a sappy email the other day.haha i'm terrible.
i need to put my pictures on my webshots. what else happend..umm a lot things but i cant remember.
hey johnna remember, "do you guys want anything" "no" "well fuck ya's then" lmfao omg that was so funny. this weekend was great...but its gonna have to come to an end when i get my phone bill *bites nails* i'm so gonna be grounded. i dont even know if i'll be able to go to homecoming...these are all the things me and johnan listed one night of what i wouldnt be able to do or what i'd be grounded from...
1. skiing *and if she takes me away from this...ugg i'll be so pissed and upset
2. wyoming county fair
3. phone
4. computer
5. tv
6. volleyball *but i dont think she'll do that
7. my drivers permit
8. no christmas gifts
9. no social life
10. all grades above an A
11. clean everything in the house
12. not be able to talk to my friends
13. have to ride school bus :(
14. NO FUN!!!
15. no extras or ice cream at lunch :P
16. no camera
17. basically a ruined 10th grade year
18. no homecoming
19. no new anything ex. clothes
but thats just the worst of it. i dont know if she'll go to those extreams...i hope its not that high...eek
oh yeah to add to taht...not let me have my party when i ALREADY sent out my invitations...but she would do that she even said she would.
so...yeah...
wow this is a really long entry..oh i got limewire pro...hehe
i'm listening to lynyrd skynyrd. gimme 3 steps gimme 3 steps of mistic *i think that right* haha...well i think i better go before i bore you all..
adios amigos
-Kayla
ps. good thing i copyed this entry becasue it logged me out when i did it haha suckers
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oh yeah i forgot to say that me johnna and chelsea all fell asleep in chels bed...haha that was the night we snuck out..
Well... i'm not gonna see will...Chelsea doesnt want to meet owen. and owen is the only way Will can get up here...and if will doesnt get up here i'm one angry bitch...so...i'm pissed. Then my mom was pissing me off so bad that day. and then i thought of another idea and ashley didnt want to do it so...i've been pissed off all week...so i wont get to see will. ugg...i wanted to see him so so so so so so so bad...but nope everyone fucks up my plan...
If the phone bill comes i'll be grounded for life...so i have to keep the phone bill until after thursday becasue i want to go to the carnival. witch i wanted to go with will..but ya know how that worked out...
omg shannon called me yesterday...i was so happy. i havent talked to her all summer. i missed her. and then i'm sending out invitations for my party.
Will woke me up this morning. I always wake him up so it was ok. Hes the only person i'll let wake me up and not be mad. god i love him so much...i...theres just no words to explain..oh and then chelseas like "you dont know what love is. your too young. you say this becusae he was your only boyfriend" bull shit..i had other boyfriends besides Will...and i never felt the way i feel with will when i was with them...she cant tell me taht i dont know what love is. she cant say who i can love or not love. god i hate it when people do that. when they try telling you how you feel. that is one of the many things that pisses me off...
I was so close to punching something yesterday. i think i was so mad that i didnt. becsaue the day before taht i was punching stuff. but w/e people can go to hell. let me just live my life how i want it. its not they're choice who i love, how i feel, what i do...if i make a mistake i'll learn from it.
but anyways now that i got that out...
today i am just gonna lounge around the house. my mom is working..thank god. i got alot of stuff for my party yesterday.
elysia got in a car accident..all i know is that she was T-boned by kenny cumo. and she was riding with jesse and she lost her hearing in one of her ears and she broke a few fingers and she side is all scratched up. but shes ok thank god.
well i think i'm gonna go back to bed or something. maybe watch tv. i'll write sometime later..
-Kayla
I am the happiest person on this earth right now...I'm going to meet Will in person. I'm so fucking happy...Its going to the next weekend. When i'm at my dads. He convinced his friend to go out with my sister so they're coming up. i dont know if my dad will know about it...we'll have to keep them secret. hehe...
i was sitting here singing, dancing, screaming, all jittery...i felt like i was a druggie going though a withdrawl. like i was all shaky and exicted. i've never been this happy in my entire life. i was jumping in the air. screaming in my blanket b/c my step dad was sleeping so i couldnt really scream. i was so fucking happy. i'm still am. wow its like a dream come true.
i love will so much. oh yeah we're engaged. but hes means so much to me. i cant belive i'm going to actually see him. but its not gonna be for long enough. wow. i never felt so good. i was jumping up in the air and then i'm like "oh shit what am i going to wear" haha...
its like 5 20 in the morning now. my step dad is up. he thinks i'm sleeping but im' not..haha. i had to mess my hairup. keep my eyes open so that my contatcs dried up and then i "went to the bathroom" and i didnt have to go pee so i turned the sink water on a little bit. and then i flushed the toliet. man you can tell i've done that too many times...and my mom gets home at 8.
Will has to leave at like 7. so i need to get some rest. i dont know how i'm gonna keep my cool around my mom and not tell her.
we are gonna cuddle...and maybe something else. haha. but...i love cuddling..its my favorite. sigh i'm so happy...
well leave me the comments and tell me what you think...i know i think its gonna be the greatest weekend of my life...
-Kayla
Well i got like 2 mins but i'm in computer tech! Yeah yesterday was V day...pretty much sucked but o well. ok i dont have time
-Kayla
I'm in computer tech. I had computer tech and tracy was abusing me. i had my hand on the chair and she shoved her desk right on my pinky finger and it hurt like a mother!
johnnas listening to "i think i'm turning japaneese" on my iPod. everyon went to the game last night. i didnt know all those people were going or i would of went. but i didnt have a ride. the boys won the varsity b ball game last night. then the wrestlers won their match agaisnt scranton prep.
angel has a staff infection and her arm might get cut off it almost happened to my dad.
i've got a lot of time left in this class. i get out of enterpenurship for a key club meeting! woot woot!
I go to killington this friday we're supposed to get a nor easter. hopefully we'll get snowed in.
well i'm gonna go look at some pictures on the computer with victor from ecudor!
adios
-Kayla
Well Its the last day before Chirstmas vacation. We have activity day today! woo hoo. Fucking zach broke my camera and now its all frozen. i tried everything. omg he makes me so mad. i leave my camera with him for 5 seconds and he fuckin breaks it. so help me god if i have to get a new one or pay money he's gonna be paying for it. i'm so pissed off. my moms gonna be pissed off and shes gonna take it out on me becuase i let him see my camera then she'll bitch at me...ugg..but iwent to the mall last night with jen it was so FUN. Her mom left us...lol it was funny. Well the bells gonna ring
-Kayla
Im in computer tech...
Well yesterday was thanks giving i had fun. i went to my grandmas and ate, then to my aunts. but i didnt pig out there. One wednsday me and johnna went shopping all day and then saw harry potter. it was pretty good. we had tons of fun especially in the mall. but today was black friday and i've never been shopping. so we got up at 5:30 and went shopping. we only went to 2 places. fashion bug and wal mart. we were the 1st people at fashion bug. but i saw people backed up in line to go to old navy and people running. it was funny. and suprisenly i didnt get into a fight. but i got my homecoming dress. its cute and a purse.
Me and johnna need to work on our ecology project this weekend. i was gonna skip my dads house to do it cause me her and her brother were gonna go to the movies but shes sick so i'm just gonna go to my dads house and then work on it sunday and monday.
Then i have to do my spanish project. but this vacation so far was fun...i might write later who knows
-Kayla
I'm in second period in Computer tech. We're going to go over our test. I just got out of drivers training. we played bingo with smarties..how cool. me and tracy were having races with them on our papers. Now were talking about the dress code. I cant wait until skiing. Johnnas gonna go. well she better. I might go to the play tonight. idk. probably not. me and will almost broke up the other night but its all good now. I probably won't go to the play. last night i didnt even get under my covers and i didnt even change into my pajamas and I went fell asleep on my bed with 1 blanket on me. Its FRIDAY!! i'm going to get skis this weekend in sayracuse. Well i'm gonna go. leave me comments
-kayla
Well me and my mom are finally getting along. shes letting me talk to will now and i dont have to seek around about it. i'm at my dads house. heres the story about the wreck
i was down to the parade with chelsea and the fire trucks started pulling out of the parade. then the siren went off. we just thought it was a fire or whatever. as we were on the corner of the dandy headed home chelsea got a phone call on her cell. well it turns out that the siren and fire truckes were for us. Both of our vehicals got hit.
I was walking really fast up the huge hill and chelsea wanted a break but i didnt let her. well there were cops, ambulance and the fire company there. this drunk driver was going like hell and he must have came around the corner or just came down the street and hit my dads 8,000 lb truck and pushed it on the side walk. he must have been going really fast for that to happen. cause my dads truck is pretty massive. well as it hit my dads truck it fliped over on its side and hit my step moms trail blazer. My dads fender is all broke and his axle is all messed up. he has to have it towed. my step mom has a big dent in the side of her car but if she didnt have a deer guard i bet her car would have been totaled. her axle might be screwed up too...
*this was all before i got there* the passenger of the car got our and strarted to run away... which is kinda weird. well the driver must have got out. he was drunk as a skunk. i think all of them were. but there was this lady in there too. my dad went out when he heard it and she was sitting on our steps. she said that they were headed on their way to the hospital and she was drinking to help her pain. then she asked my dad for a drink. haha. but they caught the guy that was running. and took the girl to the hospital. there was another girl that could have died. she was coming up the street and if the car didnt hit our vehicals she would of been hit head on and died. when they flipped the car over beer cans were coming out of the car. haha. but now my dad has to go look for a new truck cause his is unrepariable. and he needs it really bad this week. they're taking my step moms trail blazer to go look for cars. i hope the trail blazer isnt bad. but that was my eventful night. i have pics of the wreck if you want to see them. go to http://photobucket.com/albums/b39/KaylaM8084/Wreck/
then the police were here this morning to give us back our information and what not...
but other than that nothing new. im getting an iPod for christmas. yay. my dad wanted me home at 8:15 last night. he doenst trust me. hes like "no hanging out with dopers. if your late i'll grab you by the hairs of your head..." blah blah blah. and then he said "if it wasnt for that accident you would have been late wouldnt you have" and i would of been on time because we were walking home when we got the phone call about hte accident. he doenst trust me at all. what ever. but that was my eventful. night.
i havent wrote in here in forever. i should keep writing in it. oh and i re did my MySpace go to www.myspace.com/ski08
well i'm gonna go leave the comments and tell me what you think about this whole layout. i have to go wait for my cousin to get here.
-Kayla
Well i'm in school and i just took my comp. tech test. it was easy. Will called me last night. i was so happy. I havent talked to him in like 2 weeks. well besides the time i called him on my phone card. We have a volleyball game tonight. We play Deleware Valley. we're gonna lose. they have a few jump servers...i think. ihave a dumb spanish test next taht i'm definatly going to fail. o well...ok well i think i'm gonna go and do something else...leave the comments
-Kayla
Well im not grouned from teh computer no more. thank god. I got the other phone bill yesterday and it was 100 dollars so i couldnt go to konobles on sunday with johnna. i feel bad becaue i was sorta punishing johnna too. Then my mom made me think about will and i dont know whats going on with me and him because...i just dont wanna go into detail. then i called johnna crying last night. and i tired with all my might not to cry during songs i was listening to on my computer. cause they just brought back memories and the words to them got to me. so i cried alot last night. then my mom said if there were anycalls to him on the next phone bill i cant go to homecoming. and i dont remember if there is or not. so i might not be going to homecoming. and johnnas coming over today. i was gonna go to the movies last night but it was a lil late. My mom kept thinking i was mad at her when i wasnt i was mad at will. and up set about it...so...and to top it all off i have a cold and i jammed my thumb at practice yesterday.
OMG!!! i pulled my toe nail off...all the way its so sick but its so cool. lol actually my toe looks better without the nasty toe nail on it. lol
school is boring. i hate our new seats in biology. they sux a-hole. I feel like watching the Titanic. we did really bad the one game we had and for every missed serves we have to run 1 lap and for every droped ball we have to do a dive. we had 14 laps and 32 dives. but we never did them yesterday shhhh...it kinda makes me mad becuase i didnt miss any serves and i still have to run laps. but its a team sport so...
i have to go pick johnna up at 12 and its 11:20 now and i got up at 11. so i guess i should go get ready soon. but i'm gonna go now. i dont realy have much else to write about...adios
-Kayla
Well i'm grounded. haha. I cant have no phone, no computer, no party. Alot has happened this month. Me and my mom have been in a lot of fights. I really dont like her at all. I was seriously thinking about moving to my dads house. Which i'm here right now. Thats the only way i can be on the computer. is if i'm at my dads house. But anyways. I stole 15 dollars from my mom in coins that i wrapped up and i bought 3 phone cards with them. Well my mom went threw my wallet and took my phone cards and my 5 dollars i had so that i couldnt by another one. Then she hid the stamps on me so i couldnt write will anymore. But i asked her if i could write and she said i could so she gave me some stamps. OH yeah she called down to Kentucky and bitched out what she thought was wills mom but it was actually wills best friends mom. and she never told me about this. Then one day i took 25 bucks out of this little wish pot we have and the only way you can get money out is if you get tweezers and pull the money out. well somehow she knew that i took 25 bucks. she either has the phone tapped, becasue i was talking to johnna when i did it. or she has cameras. she hid all her money. and she flipped out on me the one night. shes like "why do you lie and steal from me" i said "because iknow you dont want me to talk to him. and she was like "if you think i'm such a bitch maybe you should pack your bags and live with your dad. becasue i dont know what to do with you anymore. I have to pay off the phone bill and all the bills and payments are due by this month. now i have to work over time. Thanks alot kayla. Or would you rather have me quit work and stay home and baby sit you until your 18 becasue if thats what you want then i can do it. I dont trust you. its pretty bad that i have to hide my money someplace." then we talked about will and she said he needed a shrink and i'm like "HES NOT CRAZY" she said he needed a shrink because i shouldnt have to help him threw the stuff hes going threw. and she has no idea what the fuck hes going threw. oh yeah and shes walked up stairs and is like "i know you think your in love..." and thats what really set me off. i hate it when people tell me how i should feel or think towards someone. whatever i just talk to her like everythings ok but i still am mad at her.
tonight it took everything for me to convince my dad for me to walk 2 blocks to the movies. and he just didnt want me to go...but when we got down there we couldnt get into the movies because we had to be 17 so we walk like 2 blocks down and my dad drove down and said "your in trouble" and pointed his finger. he drove down just to check on me. what ever...i got home and taught him some spanish...haha its gonna be a while
i want chelsea to get home so i can use her phone. i could ask my step mom kim if i could call will. shes cool like that...
and i just realised that it says i have no friends on my list..wtf. i had tons of them on there.
i've been having volleyball practice. and i work at the blueberry haven so people come and vist me. we get nothing done becasue we talk to much and have fun. haha.
well if i want to talk to my frineds so bad so just call me. you know the number...if not find it out from someone else or IM me. this weekend...
-kayla
Well tonight i'm going to my dads with johnna. We're going to go see the bruins football game. Oh i have some exciting news...I told my mom about Will...
She kinda forced it out of me. Shes like "who do you talk to on the phone that late at night? Do you have any boyfriends from then internet?" i didnt say anything...and she could tell by the look on my face. i said "were not dating...we're just friends. hes not a bad person..." blah blah...Well im like "are you mad at me" she said "kinda" Then shes like "i trust you. Just dont be stupid. Dont give him directions to our house. I just worry about you.." and all that other crap...she thought he was some sicko that would molest me on the internet...I was very shocked at her reaction...very..i called johnna and she was just speechless. i figured she'd slap me aside of the head and ground me. but she still doesnt now that we're dating...i told her "mom you can talk to him if you want..." shes like "no i trust you" it was very akward...
But i went to volleyball today. It was ok. I made a few overhand serves i was proud...then Phil was there. He tought us more about spiking. it was fun. all i can think now is "left right plant hit" lol but it works. i did a few good spikes today too. im doing good on my setting too...
I came home took a shower, pop my blisters on my toes...it was cool...then i did some clothes, got stuff around for dads and now i'm painting my nails...so i'm gonna go do that...adios
-Kayla
*Ten People You Talked To Today*
01)Ashley
02)Jen
03)Sarah
04)Marta
05)Randy
06)Nicole
07)Stephine
08)Coach French
09)Coach Burg
10)Tabitha
*Nine Good friends*
01)Johnna
02)Ashley
03)Jen
04)Will
05)Brianna
06)Chelsea
07)Shannon
08)Jael
09)Dad
*Eight Things In Your Room*
01)Computer
02)Stereo
03)Alarm Clock
04)Bed
05)TV
06)Mirror
07)Lamp
08)Candles
*Seven Things That Annoy You*
01)People that are in my way in stores
02)People that drive very cautiously
03)People that talk to much
04)My mom
05)My computer
06)The sound of my bed It creeks
07)Pens when they dont write but still have ink in them
*Six Things You Touch Daily*
01)My hair
02)Glass for drinks
03)Toilet paper
04)Air..haha
05)my self *not in a bad way people. like my face,arms. etc
06)My bed
*Five Favortie Candys*
01)Cream savors
02)Gummie Bears
03)is gum considered a candy?
04)Skittles
05)Reeses
*Four TV Shows You Watch*
01)Viva la bam
02)Real world
03)Desperate housewives
04)Days of our lives
*Three Celebrities You Have a Crush on*
01)Kasey Kahne¢¾ ¢¾ ¢¾ ¢¾
02) Will *even though hes not a celebrity hes a celebrity in my eyes
03)Jesse Mcarntey?? idk
*Two Things You Can't Live Without*
01)My friends
02)Will
*Name One Thing You Want More Than Anything*
01)For me too see Will...That would be perfect... or for him not to go to iraq
Well the last few days i was at volleyball. Ashley took me. We worked on passing the first day. Then today we worked on setting. Then tomorrow we're working on hitting. I'm sore...haha
Yestrday i bought a 5 dollar calling card. Then today i bought a 10 dollar calling card. I've tried calling Will a few times today but he wont pick up. o well...
I got home today and I took a shower, ate some lunch. Fell asleep on my bed for 2 hours. but not all the way through. I got up and realized that i had to make coffee for randy when he got up. So i set my alarm for 4:00. Then i got up at 4:00 made coffee. Then set my alarm for 4:30 to wake him up. Then i went back to bed. Then i got back up when i had to wake him up.
So then i went back to bed for like 5 or 10 minutes. And then my mom calls
and she woke me up. shes like "what are you doing" i said i was sleeping. shes like "did you go to volleyball" i told her i did. she said "what time did you go to bed last night?" i said around 1 sometime. she didnt belive me shes like "what time did you really go to bed." i said 1... she fucking complains about me being on the computer. now she complains when i'm not on the computer. god. shes like "you should go to bed earlier or you'll get sick" i was thinking "shut the fuck up i dont want to listen to you"
and then after that randy left. I tried calling Will. Still didnt pick up. Then i was watching some Viva La Bam. I heart that show.
I got freaking 3 phone cards taht have minutes on them..haha. i got 2 from randy...well the one doesnt work b/c it just has busy when i dial the 800 number. then i got another one. Then i bought the 10 dollar one today. i thought that i scraced the pin number off while i was trying to reviel it. but it was more towards the bottom.
i tried calling my dad tonight to see what we're doing about the bruins game. i cant wait to go. i get to go w/ johnna..hopefuly. chelseas been begging me to go. I love my sister. Me and her have gotten along a lot lately...but shes cool.
I dont wanna face my mom tonight.
hey people go to my quiz diary...i'm puttin more on there. i think i'm gonna take the one out of johnnas dramafollows15...or18 one...it seems like a good one. i'll put it in the next entry...i dont feel like putting it on my quiz diary...
well i'm gonna go send Will and email or something...OOOhh he is gonna give me his old dog tags. he bought me a necklace. and hes giving me his football jacket thing...how sweet. i asked if he wanted anything from me. but i didnt have anything...i have nothing good. what do guys like as gifts?...
well i'm gonna go adios
-Kayla
JAEL IS A LIFESAVER! I LOVE THIS GIRL!! she offered me to use her as a cover up incase my mom catches me on the phone with Will...haha i just want to give a shout out to her b/c she is one of the most wonderful people in the world..
I would also like to thank jen for letting me use her phone card for about 5 or 10 minutes b/c i wouldnt of been able to talk to will for those 5 or 10 minutes...
God i love my friends...
ok i'm gonna go.. I heart Jael and Jen
-Kayla
Well jen came over to my house yesterday and spent the night. it was blast. we went swimming. I almost got caught talking to Will by my mom...I was talking to Will on the phone and she came up in my room at 3 and is like "who are you talking to?" i said "shannon" *thank you shannon for letting me use you as my decoy. i havent even told you yet but i tried calling you today to tell you* shes like "are you sure its shannon" i said "yeah" my mom said "what is jen down there sleeping?" i said "yeah" she said "you should of been down there with her." but i told Will that it was my mom. And he was depressed about something before that happended and i was trying to cheer him up. but anyways...I thought i heard my mom pick up the phone in their room...so i told will just to shut it...and not have him talk b/c he doesnt sound like a girl. so i didnt even get to say i love you too him. i just kept telling him to be quite. and then i said bye..i felt really really bad about the whole thing. i wrote him a LONG ass email today. i tried calling him back on my phone card but there was no more minutes...so now i'm asking jen for her phone card number then i can explain to him...I hope hes ok. Because he had to go do some sorta thing w/ the national guard after he got done talking to me. and he said that when hes in a good mood or thinks about me he concentrates and that wasnt the right thing to do before he went out...but i need to buy a phone card tomorrow after volleyball when ashley drives me. i hope she will stop for me b/c i'm desperate to talk to him...
my mom said to me today "shannon was up that late? you girls are bad" and on the way home from jens house my moms like "so whats shannon been up to." i was like "not much.." brb i think i'm gonna try and call shannon again..i dont even know if she home. shes probably on vacation...but i hope she doesnt mind i used her to cover my tracks...SHANNON YOU SAVED MY ASS!!! THANK YOU!!... but anyways on with today...
on the way back from jens house i drove the dirt road. Then before we ate my mom hollared to me and is like "kayla come quick" there was a black bear down in out field right by our house. i growled at it..hehe...
but thats about it...ohh.. our pipe for the water broke today so i couldnt flush the toliet or take a shower until randy fixed it. but luckly he fixed it...i took a shower...ok well i think i'm gonna go...adios
-Kayla
I feel hollow,hurt,upset,angry,fed up, i feel like a faliure.
I got into a HUGE argument w/ my mom tonight over the most retarded thing...
I was trying to redo my whole computer. i went to go get a CD and i sat down and i SIGHED. and my mom fucking flipps out. shes like "fine if you dont want me to help you i wont. your a spolied witch. You think the world revolves around you. You think you know more then everyone else. Why have you been mean to me lately. God your crabby lately. I have feelings too you know not just you" i was so fucking shocked. i was sitting by my myself with my mouth to the floor. i couldnt even belive she said that to me. Then she was comming back and i just left. i walked out the door and left. i wanted to go to ashleys house but she wasnt there. So i walked halfway down the road and cried. then i walked down our field. and i got somewhere by the trees where no one could see me. i sat down and just started crying. so then i went back up to my house. randy and my mom were outside so i just walked inside. and then my mom came up to my room and i said "i dont want to talk right now" and shes like "why" i just kept telling her that i didnt want to talk and walked away. then i went to go sit on the couch and shes like "you hurt my feelings" i said "well you hurt mine too" and i just started crying. and then she tries buttering up to me saying "im sorry. i love you" and she hugged me. i didnt say anything back. So then i went up to my room and called Will crying. Hes like "why dont you just have your dad come fucking pick you up?" i said i was thinking about taht. but i calmed down after i talked to him. Then i was talking to chelsea about it. i'm glad shes my sister. but then my mom knocks on my door then opens it..i'm like "what" she said "i just wanted to see what you were doing" i said "i'm on the computer" and i was going to shut the door but she just had to push it open and come lay on my bed. I have a white board on my door that reads "knock. Dont come in unless i say. Dont come in even if the doors is open. Dont erase this" my mom erased the "donts" and i got so pissed off. so now i have written on there "DONT ERASE THIS" "DONT COME IN" god...
i told will i'm like "i just wish i was there with you. or anywhere but here" hes like "i know" i had to hang up with him early b/c i thought my mom might be on the other phone listening to me. Oh and when she came in my room my dog came in too. well she said to my dog "your so noisy" i was thinking "so arent you"
i cant wait until she goes back to work. i cant wait until i graduate and move far far away. I hate it here. my sisters like "come to my house you know you can" i said "i know i will this week" but then i remembered i had a volleyball thing this week so i'm going this weekend and staying for a week. i cant stand it here.
I used all my minutes on my cell phone talking to Will until 6 in the morning for 2 nights. it was great though. I think im falling in love...i know its soon but you dont even know how i feel about him. I told him "Will everytime you say 'i love you' or 'your beautiful' i get this feeling. it tingles all over me" I wish i could be with him...He almost pretty much made me cry the other night b/c he was so sweet to me. he made me feel like i was loved. I'm gonna call him tonight at midnight.
I guess i'm still having a party. before the whole fight between me and her started shes like "your not going to be mean? your not sick of me?" i said no...haha
oh and during our arugment today shes like "i'm sick you on that computer. I should of never bought it for you. you probably have virues on it anyways. i tell you what though your only going to be on it 2 hours a day tahts all." err i said "well what do you want me to do?" she said "go outside with me and randy" ugg i DO go outside w/ her and randy. she thinks im on the computer too much but im not. i seriously cant stand her. oh and she said "why are you so mean to me" i said "when have i been mean to you" shes like "just think about it?" i never even did anything mean to her. the only thing that i said was the "i'm sick of you" thing before...God...i just want to get out of here. And then to top it all off i am worrying about my friend. but i really dont care. let her ruin her life. w/e i might as well say "i told you so" now...
ok well now that i got that all out i'm going to go lay down. i've not had a good day...oh and by the way i havent been home for 1 hour and this thing w/ my mom happened...shows you how much i get along with her...
-Kayla