2011.. new year; new attitude; new me.

Def time for a whole new change. So much shit happened in the past year its ridiculous.. lets see… I broke up with joey right before Christmas in 2009 n bought a plane ticket to florida for 2 weeks n left on Christmas day.. he blew my phone up for 2 days straight before I finally decided to pick up.. he begged.. n cried.. for me to give him another chance.. n promised hed stop talkin to them dirty ass hoes.. soo of course, I gave in n said ok.. a week later he bought me a plane ticket to come home early.. thennn come may, we took a trip together to florida for 5 days n stayed at Disney.. mind u, I paid for everythinggg.. well over 2 Gs.. 2 weeks after we get home, he breaks up with me.. been cheatin on me with some hoe n made her his new bitch the day after he broke up with me.. whatever.. not suicidal at all, but wanted to be fuckin dead rather than go thru the pain n hurt that I was goin thru.. a month n a week later, he begged n begged n cried n cried n apologized n got on his knees for me to jus talk to him n “hear him out”.. so I listened, why? Cuz ima good ass person.. that’s why.. he tells me how much hes missed me n made the biggest mistake of his life letting me go n how im the one for him n he knows it n he was soo depressed n jus wanted me back in his life cuz that’s where I belong n hes soo in love with me blah blah.. so I told him id have to think about it cuz im sicka him talkin to hoes non stop n lyin to me.. it aint that fuckin hard to stay faithful damn.. but of course, I give him the benefit of the doubt n think oh well maybe he really did change.. n things were goin realllll good.. 2 year anniversary was comin up on December 2 2010… I was getting all excited.. ok, so tell me why a week before our anniversary, out of no where, he says we should stop talkin for a lil bit.. n he ignores me n avoids me.. so I go to his damn house n his mother fuckin bitch ass has 2 fuckin fat ass hickies n HE TRIED COVERING THEM WITH HIS FUCKIN HOODIE… fuckin no good ass piece of shit!! I started cryin my eyes out n screamin at him n he grabs me n hugs me n wont let go n im kickin n screamin n he has the fuckin nerve to say he still wants me to be with me.. NIGGA IS U FUCKIN SERIOUS?! And come to find out hes been with the fuckin hoe for THREE FUCKIN WEEKS already!! And his dirty ass was comin home to me every nite kissin on me talkin bout baby this baby that baby I love you I cant wait til our anniversary… u lyin ass mother fucker!! Nigga u got me FUCKED UP if u think ima stay with ur lyin cheatin ass!! Second fuckin time u did this shit to me.. fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me. Hell motha fuckin YEA I said FUCK YOU.. nigga ur fuckin DEAD to me.. all the fuckin shit I did for u n gave u.. I gave u the MF world u piece of shit! N wtf did u ever give me? JACK MOTHER FUCKIN SHIT.. all the fuckin tears I cried over ur lame pathetic poor excuse for a man ass.. don’t everrrr EVER try talkin to me ever again.. don’t call me, text me, message me, come to my house.. NOTHIN.. u done FUCKED UP.. n soon enough ur ass will realize that u lost the best thing that ever fuckin happened to u.. and guess wat, wen u finally realize it, ITS GONNA BE TOO DAMN LATE. Sucks to be you! Ur loss, clearly aint my loss. That’s for sure..

Soo.. im layin in my bed last nite.. 1 in the morning, I get a text.. guess who? Haaa… jus like our last break up, A MONTH N A WEEK LATER.. he tries talkin to me again.. askin me some stupid shit that he already knows the damn answer to.. sorry ass excuse to try talkin to me.. DIDN’T WORK BUDDY.. pretty sure I made it CRYSTAL CLEAR wen we broke up that ur deaddd to me n to NEVER try talkin to me ever again.. so whyyy do u really seriously think ima text ur bitch ass back?! U got some nerve boy.. uh uh.. u aint weaslin ur ass into my life again this time.. that’s for damn sure.. u done fucked my life up enough the past 2 years.. clearly its time to move the fuck on n get the fuck over ur sorry pathetic ass.. which im doin VERY WELL. I never thought I could live without you.. I honestly thought that if I ever left you, my world would completely crumble.. but now that ur gone, and I look back n think about ALL the bullshit n hell u put me thru.. all the unnecessary drama n tears.. I honestly couldn’t be any happier that I got u out my life for good.. and it jus so happened to be at the end of the year.. perfect time.. cuz now that it’s a new year, it’s a fresh new start for me.. im getting the old Ashley back.. the Ashley that everyone loved before ur ass corrupted her.. hell yea bitches im back.. n im goin hard this year..! n now that u see that im doin jus fine, even BETTER without u in my life, baby ik its killin u inside.. sucks don’t it? oh and sweetie, karma is a bitch. And wat goes around, comes around.. so jus wait, ull get urs.. maybe not tomorrow, maybe not even this month.. but boy, wen u least expect it, karma is gonna come after u n hit u like uve never been hit before.. u got 2 yrs of built up karma comin for u.. revenge is bitter sweet.. and I don’t even have to do anything. All I gotta do is sit back, relax, n enjoy the show; cuz ik its gonna be a good one <3

Ona happier note, i couldn’t be happier bein single right now.. got all my old friends back.. all my guy friends.. I can actually go out n fuckin partyyy like I used to.. everything.. I love it. get to focus on ME n only me. I have an awesome family n the best friends anyone could have to support me n back me up on my decisions n keep me on track n in line.. wat more could a 22 yr old girl ask for? =]

.:.*185*.:. life...

.:.185.:. life...