originally from: September 18, 2009

I dont understand where this came from or why its happening.. Everythings been goin so good for so long.. And he wants a break.. Why?!?! =[. I keep thinkin the worst case scenario n its killin me. I cant stop crying =[. I cant handle this.. Im gonna end up having a breakdown.. Idk wat i did wrong =[. I need him in my life.. Now.. And always. I cant live without him.. Idk wat id do without him =.[. I need this all to be done n over with.. Like now.. N he changed his fuckin myspace picture n status n everything.. Wtf =,[. Makes me cry even more. Omg.. I jus wanna kno wat i did.. Why this is happening n wat i can do to make it better.. I cant deal with this =,[ its too much.. I cant eat.. I cant sleep.. I cant do anything =[. Hes my fuckin world n best friend. Now wtf am i suppose to do til this is fixed =,[. I dont even kno wat to say. I wanna text him so bad but i kno i cant.. I jus wanna be in his arms but i cant =[. And to see him actin like he jus dont give a shit is killing me even more.. My heart is broken in pieces now.. And i cant fix it =,[.

I need a miracle so bad..