Okay. So time for an update. Today is the day after the most depressing day in the year. And the day after this is the day I got fired from guitar a year ago.. and then the day after that is Destination Jesus. Jamie and I aren't too excited about it, but I think after talking to James about the old stories we had and the fun stuff that happened last year..I got my excitment up. ~I think that as much as I'm not looking foward to it..it will be refreshing..sure I'd rather spend the weekend with my friends running around carmel..but then I would be wearing the "look at me" t-shirt, instead of the "look at God" ~I'm not expecting to come back as moved as I was last year, because I've grown up since last year and have figured out a little more about this life and world that we live in. ~I'm not going to lie..if Father Stan is not there, I might be a little disapointed..But I guess that means he is doing something not more important, I guess saving the world. ~ In other news, beside Destination Jesus I turned 16, got a red bug, and had a great weekend with my friends celebrating my birthday. ~Sometime its hard to realize that in this life...its you against the world. of course you have you friends there who i know my friends will be there for me through thick and thin, but sometimes its scary i guess to think that in this world you're all alone. ~sorry I'm being so spastic ~ I think that I am most afraid of dying from cancer, even more than dying from a liver related problem... ~ Okay, so I decided that I am going to stop worrying about my future and who I am going to be with and what I am going to do because as scary as it is my life might be taken away from me at anytime, and I want to know that I lived my life and lived it to the fullest... live it and make memories that will not ever be forgotten. ~ so as much as this sounds like a depressing entry. I am extremely content and pleased with my life. xoxo katttherine