I feel like. I dont know. Its funny that people that dont know alot about me care for me the most. Life and Friends are funny like that. I fell like I would be able to like talk to people before my own best friends. Why is that? Does anyone know? Why are all of my friends down when I am up and When I am down they are all up? My own friend wont even say Hi to me at school. Nor will any of my friends tell me anything that is going on. I have to find out by alskdfjalkd. Guys may be smelly. But they are totally better friends than that of girls sometimes. Josh is amazing. Just talking to him is amazing. I don't understand how he does it. But I always feel like 896548548448 times better when I do talk to him. I hope that he and laura will be able to work everything out. Claire said something today on the bus that I thought was amazing. "When you are looking for anyone, you don't find. When not looking, everyone is looking for you" It is High School. I am tired of all this drama the first year. I guess that we are all just trying to figure out where we belong and if are friends are truley are friends and trying to fit into the right crowd. I wish that Was already done for me and everything like that. ....