So get ready its a downer... Gosh, I feel like shit. Everything I do my parents yell at me. I really miss Amanda. I've gotten my hopes up too high. And I know that I am going to be disappointed. I hate it when things don't work out. Not that I have it my way all the time. But whatever.. I feeel like I've let everyone down lately and its the most horrible feeling in the world. Maybe because this is my second chance at life so I get served the seconds. I don't know.