Ok... i feel like crap... i hace been avoidinf the guy i like because i feel like im an awfulr friend... yeah i know one of my friends likes him 2... and i really feel bad about it. but should he pay the price for my feelings and my choices? i think not! i told him i've been avoiding him... and i feel awful about it... i said sorry... and then he goes.. why were u? and then i said because i have my reasons... here is the basic convorsation

Me: Brandon... wait

(Brandon waits for me.)

Me: Sorry I've been ignoring you all day.

Brandon: You were?

Me: Yeah. I was avoiding you.

Brandon: Ok, why were you avoinding me?

(I get unconfortable and start walking off)

Me: I have my reasons

Brandon: Yeah, but what are they.

Me: You'll know soon enough.

I turn to him and look at him. He looks puzzled at my behavior and just stands there while people are getting mad at him for standing in their way. It pained me soooooo much... I swear i have never ever ever ever felt that in my life. I give him a quick fake and horrendous smile and turn to leave.

When i got to class i had to tell yee-ha about it...cuz i didnt want to leave him there in doubt... I then rush out of my classroom and go to maleeha. Hoping to god that i would find her. When I got there, i see maleeha and hug her... well bump into her slash hug.... lol... i tell her somethings and leave out others... ARGH! people help me in this situation... im really really really sad about all of this... but w.e