so found out marc's little love interest's name is emily. i didn't get past that because i walked away when brice was telling me. finding out her name made me so upset. i think its because she's now real. before it was just a lofty 'someone else' now she has a name, emily. what if those friday's that marc said he had work, he really was with her? and all thanksgiving? probably. i still like him, but hate him at the same time. the kind of hate you have for someone who embarassed you, made you feel stupid. he still has a book i let him borrow... i want it back. while i was studying today for math (which is going NOWHERE i don't remember anything) i think i spaced out for literally 20 minutes thinking about him and how stupid i am, imagining scenarios of me confronting him, or him suddenley showing up apologizing, wanting me back and me saying no way, even though i want to, knowing that i can't. but as i said, those are only in my imagination. david brought me chipotle last night!! yay david! i have officially gained weight. i officialy have FLUB that jiggles! like FLUBBER! ahhhh! lacrosse is going well, hopefully i'll make the varsity team. we're supposed to be voting for captains soon. i definatly think that it should go to seniors or juniors, like allie and paige and caroline, because they're really dedicated and everyone likes them. now kat and nicole thinking that they're captains..heh not so much. sure, maybe when theyr'e seniors, but not now. our coaches are really good and i feel like i'm getting better already. i'm nervous for the upcoming season... emily... well back to studying for math (gag)