why do i always seem to make her feel bad. i always seem to be in the way and that i can never do anything right. i always fuck up and can't change that. she blames things on herself that aren't her fault. this morning she was pissed about something and wouldn't tell me...so she raised her voice and i can't take making her mad...i just started to cry...i couldn't help it...maybe i didn't want to help it...i just felt like fucking disappearing and never surfacing again...i just wanted to die right then and there. knowing i'm making her more angry is not a good thing to me...i want her to be happy...i just have to realize that i can't do that all the time. i wish to hell i could, but i can't...so i guess i just have to live through a life of fuck ups... ~Adam~