soo the dance is this weekend. yeah i quess. still haven mixed feelings about it. so im taking ashley. she's real nice, an all, but i aint ready. still thinkin about kelsey. even a a chance at it again if i play my cards right. ahh the game. once you startits almost impossible to win and even harder to quit. so wish me luck

ya so my date to homecoming may not be going with me any more. doesn't that suck. you bet i have to sort this all out after school. hope it goes my way cause if ut doesn't i'll be really mad and depressed. well hunger is getting the best of me wish me luck

sooo the school year has begun and hmwk is alredy piled high. but on a high note, just got a date to homecoming, can't wait. soccer is going great with a game tommorow. i can't beilive im now a senior. its really weird. walking the halls seeing people i don't know i realising that soon i may never see these people again. in a way its depressing but ill just have to deal with it and make the best of the time i have later

so long time no see everybody(no i can't really see you its just a saying) anyway its almost x-mas time and i really wxcited. theres only like 11 more days left. and along with christmas comes christamas break! yuraaaay! schools just as boring as ever but for some reason it feels like i have i crap load of homework each week. when will the maddness stop? they just keep piling it on. you finally climb yuorself out and then they drag you back in. well thats enough ranting for me today. later

So its been a while since i last wrote. been so busy with school and stuff. Soccer has been over for almost a week now and i should have lotz of free time after school. Right. Well thats not the case. i have been constantly getting more and more chores to do around the haouse and i think i may be going insane with all the home work i've been getting at school. i really need to get out of the house and do somthing. all i seem to be doing nowadays is going to school and spending numerous hours at my house trying to get out of chores. its really weird. already today i have had three songs going through my head for no aparant reason. one of hte songs i haven't even heard for almost 4 months now. for some reason nthough the songs tend to make me realy happy, and keeps me in a good mood all day long. well your probably tired of hearing me ramble on about things so i let ya go. peace out

So i had a game last night and i played well but not as well as i should have. we won the game though 8-0. but thats not why i feel so stoopid. homecoming is coming close and the peson i wnated to ask a lready has a date. but still thats not why i am so down. she just got the date earlier that day or the night before and, i had my chance to ask her at lunch the day before. i feel like such a moron. damn me and my damn scardness. why the hell was i afraid to ask her when i had the chance? life is so damn complicated. Was it just not meant to be? i would apreiciate a little feed back. i feel like a f-ing moron. well thanx for listenin to me yell at my self. it means a lot to me. Sincerly the Confusd idiot

Why is life so complicated? It would be a whole lot eaiser if you just woke up in the morning ans someone had your day planned out for you and made all your choices for you. But then you wouln't be able to be yuorself and everyone would be alike. I am really confusd. Nothing in this world is easy anymore and i don't know how people can stand it. so many different choices to make every day. So many chances to make mistakes. Do you ever look back, and wish you had done somthing different? I have. and then i asked my self. Would it really have changed anything. would my life really be much different if i had done somthing different? Too many questions not enough amswers. its stating to make my head spin. i would really apreciate your opinion on all i've written. thanx for listen to me and the voices in my head. later.

so last night was our socer game against forest area we won bring our record to 10-0-1. jv won their game too. i had too be ball boy during thier game, and it was raining real hard. but its all good. jill and i got to talk to each other the whole time. soo only 3 more days till my birthday and ill be 16!!!! yeah me. im going to have frodo and chase over for the day, that'll be fun. i hurt my back in strength today it hurts like hell. gots lots of hmwk to do tonight. Chemistry lab, Composition, and NHS essay. Its going to be along night. well anyways thats whats up in my life,for now peace out.

it has been a week into school but it feels like a whole month. i am going to get a whole crap load of hmwk today and i will have tonight to do it because i have an away game tommorow in mcbain and i wont have time to do any of it. well live sucks you learn to deal with i guess.

it has been a week into school but it feels like a whole month. i am going to get a whole crap load of hmwk today and i will have tonight to do it because i have an away game tommorow in mcbain and i wont have time to do any of it. well live sucks you learn to deal with i guess.

i am really tired of school and i cant wait for summer. i havent got a decent nights sleep in about 2 monthes and i am really tired. i have homework to but i dont think ill be ding it any time soon. i just realizzed this mornig that in two years ill be in collage and i have no idea what i want to major in or what school i want to go to. i need to find a job this summer too. i need the money for the trip to mexico, next year. it will cost like 1000 $!!! thats crazy. any ways i got to go find some food sometime soon or ill faint. Later John

For some reason this whole wek has been really good. barly any hmwk, fairly easy classes. And to top everything off its friday and we have monday off. huray the only bummer is that i goin to miss the dance. but there be other ones. well anyways illl have a blast this weekend. eucher,vidoe games and lotz of junk food. well ttyl John

For some reason this whole wek has been really good. barly any hmwk, fairly easy classes. And to top everything off its friday and we have monday off. huray the only bummer is that i goin to miss the dance. but there be other ones. well anyways illl have a blast this weekend. eucher,vidoe games and lotz of junk food. well ttyl John

the human mind is a funy thing. like i can't remember what i di last weekend but for some odd reason songs i don't even know keep poping up into my head. it's really weird. inned to get out of my house more. it gets really boring after a while. i have no life, i rarely use the phone,or on the net and i never go out of the house cept for school or family activity. sometimes i wish i were a differant person in a differant city(it doesn't help that there is absalutly nothing to do in thes damn town). well there is no point in complaining. later

Dreams are funny things. you don't know if there going to happen or no. cause i don't know about you people but some dreams are just screwy andhten theres the ones you want to happen. but in the end there just dreams right and youe just makin a fool of your self hopping..right? well later

somtimes you wish you could just find a deep dark hole and climb into it, just to get away from reality and the dumb idiots who live there. but the only problem is there isn't a deep enough hole into which to climb down. the best place i found so far is in my room with the lights out, drapes closed and music playing load enough to drown out the voices from down stairs. its not the best but it is still relaxing. with christmas coming i will problly be spending a lot of time up in my room. I really got to get myself out of the house more. school doesn't really count, as seeing you have to do work there. i can't wait till i get a car. i can just get into it and drive untill i run out of gas or untill i get hungry. life can just drive you insane if your stuck in your house forever, with nothing to do. well i best get back to doing abolutetly nothing. ~confusd~

The Procrastinator's Creed: 1. I believe that if anything is worth doing, it would have been done already. 2. I shall never move quickly, except to avoid more work or find excuses. 3. I will never rush into a job without a lifetime of consideration. 4. I shall meet all of my deadlines directly in proportion to the amount of bodily injury I could expect to receive from missing them. 5. I firmly believe that tomorrow holds the possibility for new technologies, astounding discoveries, and a reprieve from my obligations. 6. I truly believe that all deadlines are unreasonable regardless of the amount of time given. 7. I shall never forget that the probability of a miracle, though infinitesmally small, is not exactly zero. 8. If at first I don't succeed, there is always next year. 9. I shall always decide not to decide, unless of course I decide to change my mind. 10. I shall always begin, start, initiate, take the first step, and/or write the first word, when I get around to it. 11. I obey the law of inverse excuses which demands that the greater the task to be done, the more insignificant the work that must be done prior to beginning the greater task. 12. I know that the work cycle is not plan/start/finish, but is wait/plan/plan. 13. I will never put off until tomorrow, what I can forget about forever. 14. I will become a member of the ancient Order of Two-Headed Turtles (the Procrastinator's Society) if they ever get it organized.

so i was laying in bed last night listening to the rain, when i got to thinkin. we each got someone special out there right? well what if you can't find that person? than what ya going to do? and even if you do meet the"one" how do you know its the"one"? do you know right away or does it take awhile? and another thing, what if that someone has found some one else already, than what ya going to do. so many questions, not enough answers. John

just testing out, to see how this works. just messin round till i figure stuff out Confusd