why the hell do i have to let my frustration get in the way of everything. i consider myself to be a laid-back person and not controlling...but DAMN! I just went off this morning because i was happy and my love was having problems...i just wondered why she couldn't be happy... so...without trying to get info on why she was mad...i just went off. i just fucking walked off and slammed a locker on my way...that took out some of my frustration...but i was just pissed. I realize now that it is my "dick-head" past coming through my skin and trying not to die. it's already buried because that's not how i normaly am, but i just wish i didn't have to be like that. I love her soooo much. she means everything to me and i just want her to be happy. i guess it makes me feel helpless when she's down and i can't do SHIT about it. i know she'll be happy again, and thank god she is now. i just spent luch-time with her and cheered her up a little. can't wait to spend the rest of my life with her...serenity... ~AdAm~