The Sounds of Music

by lastchance4sanity

I'm depressed. For a little while now. I just feel so sad. It seems like a good solid cry would help.... but I can't work up the tears. Every now an then I think I might get the water works going but then nothing.

What has me down?

Life. Life is a fucking bitch. It's tedious and exausting. At times it seems futile.

From time to time a person forgets what it is that makes life beautiful. Not in an an intelectual sens, sure I could make a rambling list of the "beatuy of life" but that's a shallow memory. The memory I can't seem to grasp right now... that' I can't seem to reach out and cling on to is the feeling of what makes life beautiful.

Even the memory of that feeling has grown faint... distant... almost doubted... did I really even feel it?

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I liked the quote with the salt water a lot.
Is it from you?
Glad to see that you are still active on here. I've been dealing with a lot of depression too, that's what always brings me back to sitdiary, haha. I hope good things come to you soon.
and what came later to my mind is: if you don't ever fell the down, how can you know when it's an up?

Life is shitty sometimes, but wonderful at other times. Boat on the river like. And that with the fart is true!
Hey Meg. I'm concerned about you. Please don't give up on hoping for tomorrow. I really enjoy that you are here and we exchange words - even if it's only a few words and we both don't really know each other. Im quite shitty at motivating, but i can fart so that it sounds like it's coming out of a tin can. I totally would love to watch Mama Mia2 (and that is a secret) because i think it's hilarious to see James Bond perform Abba. I'd like to smoke weed again now that it's summer and i can let time pass. I used to love comics and i still have all of them. I understand now that everything i wrote in the past was true and that becoming older is notheing untrue to my past. I'm really that you comment on my thoughts and secrets sometimes. I love spending time on a river in the summer. It grounds, it never is a waste of time. Just being for a few hours. Not to worry about money, cellphone, work, whatnot.
please be well my friend.
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