last night was better than yesterday...well i talked to nathan on the phone last night...more like cried to him...read the letter cyndy wrote me...and he let me cry on his shoulder...so thank you nathan...i needed that... i was a little embarrased though...that i cried...but we laughed more than i cried... i'm glad nathan and i are friends again... UPDATE NUMBER ONE!!! OK SO i helped alex set up a diarie...it looks nice...he's knockhoovers UPDATE NUMBER TWO!!! she's blasphemous!...april said the lead singer from kutless looks like leonardo *gags* decaprio...ok NO HE DOESN'T!!!!