the sun has died and my world has frozen... i was told some of the worst news ever today...all of which i can't dispose of until tomarrow...ah screw it! my pastor and his wife have quit...the 28th is their last day...i'm so pissed off at cyndy!...she was like my mentor! but now that the youth group will die...i'll just get a job...i'm so pissed! SCREW WORSHIP! SCREW ALL OF THIS! I'M SO DONE AND I'M SO PISSED! i've lost the will to worship...i thought it woould never happen but it has...i don't want to....i love God with all my heart...but i'm taking a little break from my church...i'm so upset...i don't know what i'm going to do...i don't want a new pastor....or pastor's wife...i just DON'T!!! DAMN IT!!!! i wish i had a job so i would have to be around this crap...i'm so mad...and horribly depressed now!...i hate people... UPDATE! just realized somthing...this whole pastor and cyndy quitting thing...this is the reason dad asked me if i could lead worship if pastor and cyndy ever went anywhere...and the reason cyndy was training me...well f**k that! I'M NOT DOING IT!!!