These past 2 days have been tough. Really hard. Yesterday I was upset with 2 of my coworkers...I was near tears on the phone with my mom over the lunch hour. And then today, one of them was just plain mean to me...and I snapped. I was just sitting there, staring at what he had just said to me over IM, and then Gina called over and I couldn't speak because I knew if I opened my mouth, I would start crying. She kept asking me if I was ok...and I just was like "no"....She even had told me earlier in the day that I really needed to start looking for a new job because I just look miserable. I just went into the bathroom and cried. Despite all that, I've been trying really hard to have a good attitude this week. I hate being dramatic, and I hope I'm not. This is really hard on me. I'm so uncomfortable here....and I've brought a lot of this on myself. I realized that last night. I think that, for a few months, I really let things slide and participated in conversations I shouldn't have, said things about co workers that I shouldn't have...and just acted very unkind and wordly....and now I'm trying not to. But I'm surrounded by it. So, pretty much...with every ounce of my being, I'm trying to close out the conversations, the rude actions....And it's tearing me down, wearing me out. I almost completely snapped with my little cry today....I'm scared. Scared that one of these days I am going to really snap and then start bawling my eyes out at work.... My mom took some notes during Bible study last night since I was nursery and gave them to me after church....Psalm 37:4-5....Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust in Him, and He will do it....Psalm 37:8....Cease from anger and forsake wrath, Do not fret, it leads only to evildoing....These have kept me going throughout the day. I'm so thankful for such a great mom. Well, tonight is Fondue night at my house...the boys are coming over and we're chowing down on some good fondue. Hopefully, some of the girls show up. And tomorrow night is Lindsay's meet. That'll be fun also. One more day of work for the week.... Can't wait to see you girls this weekend.