You know...I'm really tired of my car! I really am! It's a fucking black hole that takes all of my money....JUST FOR IT NOT TO WORK! Dammit! Okay...I got the radiator yesterday. Michael put it in...and that was SUPPOSED to be the only real thing wrong with it. Then I needed to get a new battery...no biggie...it had a 2 yr warrenty so I got it for free. That's cool. BUT NOW...I'm probably going to have to get new spark plugs, AGAIN, not sure about the wires...and Michael's also telling me that I need to get another serpentine belt. FUCK! I love my brother and everything...but damn. I'm really starting to lose faith that he know's what the hell he's talking about. It's pissing me off! GRR! I hate not having a car...I really do. All I want is to fix my p.o.s so I can drive it to and from work...so I can save up for a new car that I can do payments on. But I guess that's too much to ask! FUCK IT! Moving right along! ^_^...(I'm feeling slightly bi-polar right now) Now about Dereck! I don't really know what to say about that. I guess we are "casually dating"....that's what I'll call it anyway. Cause we're not "going out"...we're just...umm..."seeing each other", I guess. That's cool though! I am COMPLETELY kosher with that...cause it seems like when you put a title to shit..it all goes down hill. I think it's because you know you have that person...so what's the point of trying anymore. You know? hmmm...I feel like such a girl talking about this shit. It's weird. But whatever. hmmm...what else? It kinda seems like we both have the same personality...even though I don't really know him yet...I can tell. The one thing that's really getting on my nerves, though, is that he never calls me when he says he will. He'll bring it up, and ask when to get a hold of me and act like he will...but he never follows through. He calls me EVENTUALLY...but he doesn't do what he say's he's going to do. grr. But I don't want to bring it up...cause I don't want to seem like a clingy bitch or some shit. I don't know...it's just the principle of the thing, I guess. But oh well...just pointless crap! I really like him though....it kinda worries me because I know that I could easily fall in-love with him...if I allowed it. Which I won't. Not after awhile, anyway. I hate being heart-broken...I can't help but put up my guard. At least half way. Blah...relationships are so complicated! But whatever...it's a risk that is worth taking! hmmm...that's about it! I finally have a day off! I can actually get some sleep tonight! YAY! I haven't gotten to sleep in for like 2 or 3 weeks now...been to busy! But yay...that makes me happy! So anyway, I'm gonna get off here. Take it easy guys! Later!