Sunday morning, Jesse left for Penticton. I haven't talked to him scince Saturday and today is tuesday. I'm not even sure if I'd want to talk to him. I'm still having like mixed emotions about what he said to me on Friday....
Here's how it went. I was looking over old pictures and Jesse phoned me around the same time every night. I told him that I had found pictures of when we went to Band Camp. (yes band camp) at that time we weren't going out. And so when I brought up band camp, he decided to tell me about his crush that he had oh this chicky "Mikasa". He went on this whole big story of this crush, I would start talking unknowing that he wasn't finished his story.
Anyways
He was like describing everything. Funny though. He can remember every detail to this little crush, yet he can't remember the day of our first-ish date.
After he finished his story, I playfully asked him "Do you still like her?" thinking that he would say no because I am the only one he would like. Unfortunetly for me, he said that he still liked her and still carried feelings for her.
Okay umm, we've been going out for almost 5 months now. & He like-likes a person who he's never gone out with!! I can't believe that he's liking someone else and going out with me.
Oh Oh and heres the kicker....
I was being TOTALLY sarcastic and funnily-ness, I said to him "Well you know if you plan to still date me you can't like anyone else or it's over" Then I'd imagine us laughing weirdly or something. But nooo, Jesse took it to heart, and said something that totally shocked me!
He said, "Oh so what?, I'm not even allowed to like anyone else?"
ooooooh, mann, I was going crazy in my self.
I didn't tell him how I was feeling. He was leaving the day after, and I wanted to be apart on good terms-ish. But now, I'm so AHHHHH, it's crazy!
He still likes mikasa
and, by what he said, it sounds like He will like who ever he wants, but still go out with me.
How presious do I feel? GAWD! ahhhh.
*tear tear tear*
IF YOUR GOING OUT WITH SOMEONE YOU SHOULD BE COMMITED
I AM ANGERED...